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♥ ; Saturday, April 29, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

hmm..one thg i really hv to admite here..I MISS HIM..i tried nt to msg him..n i can resist the urge..but deep down in moi heart i noe..i still misses him a lot..but one thg..he didn't even ean to appreciate mie as a frenx..so it is more impossible tat he will wan to reply moi msgs..even if i really do msg him..the person who said tat dun wan to end until so ugly de is him..n nw making the whole thg look so saddist de is oso him..i dun expect him to patch..jux wan him to reply moi msgs..smtimes i really nid him a lot..n certain thgs only between us..but he jux dun seems to care..he wans to treat mie in tis manner..making mie totally couldn't turn to anyone..n nth could be done..will i jux die one dae..nt even noe wat hv happened..all i suffer is pain..really dunno wat to do..n who to face too..continue like tat wat will happen to mie..

♥ 7:19:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

okie..i'm down with fever again..very high tis time..no idea wat is wrong with mie..keep falling sick..but when it is dae time..i'm super fine..super health..haix..hope i'm okie..continue like tis..i'm gonna brk down again..feel tat i'm burning..haix..

♥ 2:40:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Thursday, April 27, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

i'm sick..sick for 3 daes le..sore throat..on n off de fever..diarrhoe..haix..got so much rest..but still can fall sick..dunno y..afraid it hv happened again..if it really do..wat am i suppose to do..haix..watever it is..i'm nt gonna thk so much any more..hv to look forward to moi life ahead..if he wans to contact n be frenx..he will be the one to msg mie..but i bet he wun..if he really belongs to mie..he will be back to moi side oso..jux tat the luv is there..perhaps he do luv mie..but he is really jux to tired to continue le bah..watever it is..look forward..

♥ 6:52:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

For two daes respectively..i have been dreaming abt him..miss him very much..those dreams are so sweet..make mie very reluctant to wake up..hwever..happie memories doesn't last..i miss him very much..i noe it couldn't be brought back anymore..but i jux wanna maintain frenx with him..but it jux seems to be so tough..coz he couldn't accept mie..those dreams made mie very happie..really very happie..but they are jux dreams..i dun expect him to come back to moi side..but at least jux treat mie like a frenx..he can treat everyone so well..xin yi,jun xian,aaron..all his frenx are treated so well..jux like bros n sis to him..but y am i so special..i am totally isolated by him..dun he noe tat by doing tis..i will be even more hurt..y until nw he still cant thk to moi feelings..he will jux thk tat i'm fan..hw abt others who msg him n call him..they are nt fan to him..only mie..only mie is fan..

♥ 11:08:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Tuesday, April 25, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

Having lots of complicated feelings again..missing him..but couldn't contact him..seriously hurt..i noe it is impossible to be with him le..but hv packed up moi feelings jux to be frenx..he oso dun seems to understand..we hv been together for 2yrs ++..of coz it wun be easy for mie to forget everythg so easily n so thoroughly..really dunno wat to do..i'm in a lost world again..totally lost..someone pls help mie..pls..pls..pls..pls..pls..

♥ 11:13:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Sunday, April 23, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

why do u hv to treat mie in tis manner..came to moi hse take ur thgs when i'm nt ard..y can't u jux let mie c u..ask u to meet..u oso dun wan to reply moi msgs..do u hv to treat mie in tis manner..do u hv to make mie suffer so much..i really dunno wat to do..how i hope i could hv a way to end all tis..it is really torturing mie everydae..do u really hv to treat mie in tis manner..wat am i suppose to do then u r happie..i go n die..

♥ 4:23:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Friday, April 21, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

wee~~~..feeling alittle happie..coz todae msg him..n he replied..hahaha..abit mad..but i really dun like the feeling of msging him..n he totally doesn't wan to reply..yes..maybe he hv hurt mie with his words..but due to the luv i hv for him..i'm nt angry with him..but i still do take it to heart..although he didn't msg mie anythg fancy..jux telling mie to take care of myself..make mie happie tat he still concern..but perhaps he afraid his msg will giv mie false hope..so the way he msg..make mie thk tat his trying to tell mie "aaa..u dun thk so much hor~~!!!"..but still happie tat he did reply..make it might be the 1st time he reply mie..n oso the last time..but i wun noe..jux noe tat he is still tat precious to mie..dun wan to fan him..dun wan to irritate him..dun wan to giv him trouble..jux wan him to noe tat i am in his world..supporting him..be it moral support..i will always be there for him..couldn't msg him all these..coz he dun like..he will thk tat i am irritating him..all i wan him to noe is tat i'm there for him..perhaps he wun read all these..but everythg is really from moi <3..

if u do read.. .. ..

jux wan u to noe..i'm there for u..u nid sm1 to support u..dun keep keeping thgs to urself..voice it out..can't find anyone..i will be there..jux giv mie a call or msg mie..really dun wan u to get stress out..being hurt..or wat so ever..but if really dun nid mie to support u..even jux moral support..let mie noe..i will jux mo mo de shou hu ni..

♥ 11:29:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

i noe it is weird to blog at such a wee hr..but i can't help it..i really miss him a lot..but i couldn't le t him noe..i really miss everythg tat he gav mie..really hope to be back with him..but i noe it is impossible..everyone ask mie to giv him time to thk over..but he hv already told mie tat he hv made his stand tat he will nv ever patch..i wan to wait for him..but will there be chance..shd i wait..i eally dunno..i only noe..i hv fall deeply for him..bcoz of him..i hv slpless nites..wat am i to do..i'm lost again..

♥ 1:51:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Thursday, April 20, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

Made tis video for him..

♥ 11:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

friendster a lot of frenx..doesn't mean all of them are there for mie..a lot of friends..doesn't mean they are true friends..i really dunno wat are u thking..u shd noe moi life most clearly..as we hv been together for 2yrs plus..

♥ 7:52:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

i'm being scolded..

scolded for bothering him..

i didn't wan to bother him..

but i jux cant hold back moi feelings..

i'm so deeply in luv with him..

his words really hurt mie..

hurt mie very deeply..

dunno whether will he noe tat he hurt mie..

dunno whether he said those thgs is really from his heart..

or izzit he juz wan mie to giv up on him..

i'm so deeply in luv with him..

not sae giv up then can giv up de..

i nid time..

lots of time..

jux to pull myself back together..

i'm shattered..

i'm sad..

so sad tat i hv to drown myself with tears before bed..

all i hope is his understanding..

nt sae "fang qi" then can "fang qi" de..

i'm still not use to the life without him..

♥ 6:58:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

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Quality Time:		12
Acts of Service:		9
Physical Touch:		4
Words of Affirmation:		4
Receiving Gifts:		1

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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♥ 6:56:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Wednesday, April 19, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

i felt tat i am a useless bump..
i miss him so much..
even after he said those thgs to hurt mie..
i miss his hugs..
i miss his smiles..
i miss his warmth..
i miss his kisses..
i miss our outings..
i miss the times tat we hv pillow fights..
i miss the time tat he play arcade..
i miss the way he dance..
i miss alot of thgs..
i really miss him lotx..
but no matter hw much i try to forget..
the more i remember everythg..
those thgs are deeply in moi memory..
so clear..so sweet..yet nw everythg is so bitter..

I REALLY MISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ 11:36:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Monday, April 17, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

i'm hurt..

deeply hurt..

hurt by watever he said..

hurt by watever he done..

hurt by everythg..

totally lost conscious of life..

totally hv no idea wat am i suppose to do in life..

while to him..

everythg is nth..

he jux wan to live his own life..

y izzit like tis..

y is he so hard hearted..

y he can juz do such a thg to mie..

y he could jux hurt mie n treat it as nth..

y he could jux live his life on without being affected..

who can tell mie all the answers..

who can help mie..

someone pls help mie out of tis..

i'm hurt..

i'm injured..

i jux simply nid help..

someone jux help mie..

the more i try nt to thk of him..

the more i miss him..

the more i try to continue with moi life..

the more our memories fill moi heart..

y are all tis happening to mie..

y do i hv to suffer such torture..

i nid ans..i really nid ans..

♥ 10:17:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

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最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

yar char bo..i noe u wun be able to take all moi changes all at once..tell u tat i start to like clubbing life..wan to put tattoo..drking..even tot of taking up smoking..i noe u couldn't take tat i hv a big change..i change myself so much..is bcoz i felt tat if i dun change..i dun feel tat i hv forgotten him..n i really noe wat i am doing..certain boundaries i wun go over de..hahaha..trust mie..yes..it might be difficult to sae..but i noe wat am i doing..n wat i wan..after he left..i could feel smthg hv changed in mie..sm1 who use to be afraid of horror movies..nw totally treat it as nth..i most afraid thg is nt watching horror movies..is losing him..n nw i hv lose him..nth i am afraid anymore..sorrie to make u worry..but really..i hv change..nt outside..but inside..coz no money to change outside..hahahaha..take care..i will take care..n i noe wat am i doing..

♥ 9:31:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Saturday, April 15, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

rene..i gt another blog.. blurrymie.blogspot.com

♥ 4:55:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Tuesday, April 11, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

I'm going to do smthg tis fridae..

i dunno whether it is rite or wrong..

but i hv decided to do it..

reason is simply bcoz..

i miss him..very miss him..

n he oso agree to the outing..

i noe a lot of pple might find mie stupid..

meet him again..c him again..

i will be more upset..

but..i really miss him alot..

pls understand..

rene..u sae u understand hw i feel..

but the impact is different.. ..

really very different.. ..

but i'm nt being unhappie..

jux wan moi feelings to be out..

coz i luv him for 2yrs plus..

when thru a lot..

n i really mean a lot..

u shd noe wat i mean..

laughter..joy..pain..heartaches..troubles..etc..

really nt easy to throw everythg aside..

♥ 8:31:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Sunday, April 09, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

After ups n downs..

After 2yrs 8mths n 16daes..

EVERYTHING HAVE JUX ENDED..

JUX WITH HIS "SHORT N SWEET" REASON..

HE IS TIRED..

EVERYTHING IS JUX SO UNFAIR TO MIE..

NO PROPER TALK..

NO PROPER EXPLANATION..

JUX WITH HIS WORDS..

I HAVE TO ALWAYS LISTEN TO WATEVER HE SAES..

HIS THE KING..

I HAVE TO GIVE IN TO WATEVER HE SAES..

OR I WILL BE "BEHEADED"..

I'M SELFISH..

WHO IS MORE SELFISH..

ONLY THINK OF HIMSELF..

NOT HAVING ENOUGH FREEDOM..

NOT HAVING TIME FOR HIS DREAMS TO BE FULFILLED..

WAT ABT MIE??

I JUX DUN SEEMS TO EXIST IN HIS WORLD..

♥ 11:27:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Saturday, April 08, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

hmm..todae on..i will be working in Learning Capital de library..obviously as a librarian lah..hmm..hope everythg will be smooth ba..happie tat at least moi week end will be a little occupied by work..oso can earn sm money to pay moi bills..hopefully pamper myself..haha.. actually keeping myself occupied so tat i wun keep pestering him..once i hv spare time..i will start to thk tat he hv no time to pei mie..i'm sick in my mind..but tat is natural one mah..tis mth he hv two big TSS de events..so obviously i will feel neglected..but if i make a big fuse at him..he will thk tat i'm selfish n unreasonable..wat am i suppose to do..telling him..doesn't seems to make a difference..i really dunno wat to do..then will solve everythg between us..issit so difficult to jux dun do thgs tat i dun like..do i hv to be those kind of girls who are super duper understanding to their bf..until even they are neglected or 3rd party appear oso dun make a noise..nw toking to him..make mie feel tat there is a gap between us..wan to tok to him properly..but he dun seems to hv the time to spare mie..is he tired le mah..or i shd let him go..i'm really confused nw..jux hope he could spare mie time to tok to him bah..

♥ 1:21:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Thursday, April 06, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

tis is the photo tat laogong use his N70 to take de..haha..nxt mth..i might be getting moi N70 le o..haha..hmm..yesterdae laogong off..went out..at bugis walk walk..went to take neoprint..then walk ard..then decide to go get laogong de N70..bought the extra memory card n the protective casing too..he's happie..but wallet one big big hole..kinda xin tong lah..after buying..went to ms clarity cafe to eat..laogong took photos of the food..but didn't transfer into the com..the neoprint oso can't scan in..wait lah..wait until one dae..if i can..i will do it..haha..

♥ 3:11:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Sunday, April 02, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

F*CKING HELL..moi mum jux put password onto the com recently..n nw she change the password..pissing mie lor..wat i did wrong..moi bros noe the password ..but i dunno..when i noe it..it is changed away..before u put password..the com hv porn..n i guess u suspect is mie rite?sorrie..it is ur two sons..wat for i go c porn..neither it is jason..u shd noe ur son is going thru tis period now..u didn't get thgs clear n jux point ur finger at who u suspect..did u really ask n find out..if tis is wat u wan..then let mie noe..i will jux get out of tis hse..work n feed myself..to u..ur sons are innocent..to u..ur two elder daughter is obedient..to u..i am always rebelling..i am a human..i noe wat i wan..n even i step into a wrong step..it will jux be a learning experience to mie..i dun wan to be someone with no life..feel very pissed off with the way u are doing thgs..u always thk tat i am wrong..others are rite..even moi bf u thk tat he is nt good..he is who i choose to be with..even if in future we get married..n our life is suffering..is oso wat i hv chosen..to mie..i felt tat u only show respect to ur the other four kids..as for mie..is like kind of dun nid to respect kind of treatment..if tis is wat u thk..then pls get thgs rite..i am damn disappointed..u are always nt listening to thgs tat i am trying to tell u..i really dunno wat is rite wat is wrong..coming back hm..i felt so sick..coz i hv no one who i can share moi heart with..all i can to is to tok to moi frenx n jason..they listen to moi heart..wat abt u..i really dunno wat hv i done wrong..jux a simple heart..n thgs get so complicated..if u doesn't wan mie to touch the com or dun wan jason to use the com..jux open ur mouth..wat for keep it to urself..then when we use..u're unhappie..

♥ 10:38:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.

♥ ; Saturday, April 01, 2006

最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥

ytd was moi last dae at work after 2 n a half mths..finally get to rest man..went shopping with diza after work..went to eat n change laogong's bag..tis time round change le..n he like it a lot..hahaha..feel happie whenever i could get him smthg n tat smthg is he like de..hehehe..ytd is the last dae to c the bitch..perhaps..c oz i dun wanna c him again..hate the feeling of pple ordering mie ard..excuse mie bitch..who are u to do tat..bought a new pair of slippers n bought gina a top..haha..dunno whether will she like ant..but the top is very her lah..i mean is exactly those kind tat she always wear..miss everyone is ofc..it was a fine environment until those bitches became more bitchy..haix..nw waiting for moi appeal results..can go in ant..mux c tat le..if nt then go for other choice ba..hehehe..later meeting diza at 3pm for shopping then meet gina at harbourfront mrt at 7pm..huhuhu..spend spend spend...spend moi hard earn money..to relax abit..hehehe..got to go le..

♥ 9:58:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.