♥ ; Monday, October 31, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
todae is the 3rd dae le...oso is moi chinese o lvl paper...o lvl paper ok lah...nt really as tough as i expected...but sure is ard E8 or D7 de lah...hmm...todae is 3rd dae...3rd dae of our brk up...realli upset but cant do anythg...miz him but cant c him...haix...but at least todae gt a little changes...msg him...he replied...nt a long msg...but i realli happie le...at least he willing to reply...waiting for the ans tml...haiz...dunno wat will the ans be...but i hope it will be a positive ans...coz i realli dun wan to lose him le...perhaps bcoz he replied moi msg le...so i dun realli hv a lot to complain...only wan him to be by moi side...i happie le...watever it is...tml will be a dae tat will realli affect moi life...take care...
♥ 2:04:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, October 30, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
2nd dae le...done lots of reflection thru out the nite...realised tat it is moi fault to be alwayx acting so unreasonable...realli regretted with moi actions...realli wan to prove him tat i hv realised moi mistakes...but he juz dun seems to be willing to giv mie another chance...he is extremely impt to mie...memorise of 27 mths is nt so easy to be 4gotten...he is avoiding moi calls...n ignoring moi msgs...hw could he be so hard hearted...decided to giv him until 1st nov...to thk thru whether do he wanna patch...so control moiself nt to contact him...i am hurt...very hurt inside...tml is o lvl chinese...but juz dun hv the mood to thk of it...all moi attention is on tis relationship...moi luv for him is no more juz puppy luv...realli luv him with all moi heart...but he juz dun wan to care abt mie...hw i wish i could juz end moi life...end moi sufferings...without him in moi life...must as well take away moi life...so tat i wun hv to suffer so much...he make mie fall realli deeply for him...n nw he juz ignore mie totally...juz nw call him...he asked mie y still kip calling him...saying tat i hv gav him until 1st nov...y still kip contacting him...i sae those thgs but u didnt reply mie...i realli dunno wat to do...no one can help mie...n no one knows hw hurt i am...u said even if i gav u until 1st nov n thk...u will nv change ur mind...but hv u ever thk of hw i feel...27 mths of relationship...took mie 2 yrs to 4get abt a 5 mths relationship...n fall realli deeply for u...n nw our 27 mths juz end like tat...nt even a single chance...nt tat i wan to bother u...but i realli cant let go...rene sae is time to let go...but it is nt so easy...using mouth to sae is easy but the actions is tough n hurtful...mum wans mie to concentrate on moi studies...without him ard...moi life is in a total mess...hw am i to concentrate...at least if he gives mie sm hope for tis relationship...i will still better...but no...juz within 1 dae...he sae brk then brk...nt tat we dun hv feelings for each other...it is juz becoz of mie...but nw i realli reflected...realli reflected...y he cant jux giv mie another chance...u dun wan to listen to mie...but will u listen to others...realli hope tat sm1 could juz help mie...i realli done a lot of thking...without him for 2 daes...moi life is realli lifeless...no mood to eat...no mood for any other activity...cant slp...took the whole nite everydae to reflect on our relationship...it is realli moi fault for nt being understanding...but being more unreasonable...i realli realised moi mistakes...realli...hw i hope he could c all these...but i thk it is less possible...nw tat i am controlling moiself nt to contact him will realli giv him the chance to thk over abt our relationship...he kip saying he doesnt wan to tok abt tis anymore...but i realli felt unfair...he didnt explain or giv mie the chance to prove him...realli hurt mie...pls dun treat mie in tis manner...u realli hurt mie...hope u could find sm1 to tok...n ask for opinions...n hope tat tat person is a angel who could help mie n bless tis relationship...realli dun wan tis relationship to be sour anymore...i wan it to be sweet...n i will realli treat him well...if he giv mie another chance...i realli wan him to be moi laogong 4ever...realli...realli waiting for gd news frm him on 1st nov...even if he sets conditions or tell mie...he will only patch with mie after moi o lvls...i also dun mind...as long as he giv mie sm hope to tis relationship...i juz dun wan it to end...realli...pls bless us...pls help us...take care...
♥ 8:24:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, October 29, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
everythg hv changed since ytd...feeling veri bad in mie...feeling veri upset...hw i hope the time jux could be turn back...or jux being given a 2nd chance...but no one will understand...i really dunno wat to do...all i noe i am veri regret...i hv lost smthg tat is most impt in moi life...hw i wish i could jux end moi life to end all moi sufferings...i really luv him...very dearly...but he jux dun understand it...i am willing to do any chances...as long as he gives mie another chance...i show a strong side of mie...but i am really veri upset in mie...to him...he felt tat contiuning tis relationship is jux trying to drag it...but in mie...i really nt wan to drag it...i wan to continue with tis relationship n be happie n treat him well...but all tis are nt listen into him...anyone can help mie...help persuade him...help mie let him noe i really luv him dearly...help mie soften his heart so tat i could once again enter...n treat him even better nw...really regretted with moi actions tat changed everythg...really wan to persuade him...but it isnt so easy...coz he felt tat i jux wan to drag tis relationship on...but no...i really wan to be with him again...n i really promise tat i will do any chances...hope he will soon realised wat i am thking...n give mie another chance which i will really appreciate it again...watever it is...hope he will take care n hv a blessful life...
i hv no mood for moi o lvls...
coz i hv lost amthg really impt to mie...
juz hope tat the time could be turned back...
or tat he will giv mie another chance...
juz another chance which i will really appreciate...
but i thk...really could change his decisions anymore...
*sad,depressed,lonely*
WHY NO ONE COULD HELP MIE???
SOMEONE PLS HELP MIE...PLS...
♥ 5:53:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, October 27, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...i was told to update moi blog everydae...coz u thk tat tis is the only source tat u can find out wat is happening ard moi life rite...haha...oie...phone fake one ar...haha...joking lah~...nth much happened lately...or maybe i shd sae almost nth...juz sm small quarrels with him...coz u noe lah...guyz juz cant cope with the life of managing the different character a ger can hv when facing different situation or after certain incidence...watever it is...jux hope tat soon everythg will be smooth...o lvls are really close...but dun really hv the heart to study yet...but trying moi best lah...ok...after 16.1o...which is the last dae i blog...nth much happened...slack at hm...meet up with u guys on 20.10...make mie wait almost 2hrs sia...poor mie...worst is the whole outing only lasted for 30mins...waste moi time...but ok lah...at least we can gather together...sundae slack at hm again...thk of lots of thgs...mondae which is 24.10...is aloy's bdae...n moi 2yr 3mth with him...hmm...veri fast each mth jux passed...when to pet shop...n decided after o lvls...i am going to get moi-self another hamster...n tis time round i am going to take gd care of it...n i mean it...so dun be surprise if u c mie bringing them ard...even when we are out to window shopping...hmm...also saw a new pet...nt in pet shop but one of the stalls i guess...it is called Ha Ha Crabs...it is actually hermit crabs...veri small once...they hide in shells..wat attracted mie is tat there shell are painted...veri cute n nice...but expensive wor...1 set $25...include the hse n everythg...2 for $45 wor...hmm...hamster still better...coz tat hermit crab can pitch pple sia...n hamster dun bite pple so often...hope o lvls will be over soon n i will start to enjoy life...haha...k lah...u mux take care lor...i will try to write everydae de...
>.<
♥ 12:43:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, October 16, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
nw hving a mixture of feelings again...missing all moi frenx in MJR...luv them lotx...all tis is part n parcel of life...thking back the daes tat i alwayx thking to get out of tis sch...but nw...finally graduate le...but missing the sch badly...thking of sm stuffs...read rene's blog...then thking back to wat patricia hv told mie...tat really struck mie...in moi yrs in MJR...i hv a grp of sisters...
-->Crazy Seven<-- i was discussing with her abt memories of them...then suddenly she said smthg...which made mie feel sad...hmm...she said tat if we are really tat united...we wun ended up with all in different places...we shd be all in same sch n same class until nw...thking back to the daes...of nt pulling moi sisters along with...thking back to the daes...tat we only enjoy playing ard...nv get them to hv the interest in studying...or else we will be graduating together on 14.1o.2oo5...haiz...izzit really moi fault...for being selfish...i really dunno wat to do...all the feelings are juz coming to mie all the sudden...i dunno wat to do...n hw to react to it...it will juz be so fun if we crazy seven get to graduate together...
♥ 11:17:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
went to read xinyi's blog...realised tat she is being pampered by a lot of pple in soup spoon n even him...okok...i might be stupid...but he is using the way tat he treat mie to treat him...by the way she describe it...it is so unfair to mie...last nite wan to tok to him over certain thgs...but he fall aslp...one of the reason y we always quarrel is bcoz of tis...everytime when we wan to discuss thgs over the phone...he will feel tired n fall aslp...smtimes even making mie thk tat he did listen...but he didnt...y izzit so unfair to mie...nt tat it is 3am or 4 am...smtimes even at 12mn or 1am...u can be tired...hw abt if u are out there with ur grp of frenz...going kbox until 3am...everytime quarrel...is moi fault for being unreasonable...but hv u ever thk of hw i feel...our time for going out together is almost zero...while ur time for them is full...anytime any moment...u will jux call to tell mie u wun be going hm so early or u will come to moi hse later at abt 3+am...no matter is go eat or going kbox with them...smtimes even the time tat is meant for mie also will hv thgs happened tat nid to involved them...nt tat i wan to quarrel...i dun find u to quarrel will u ever listen to wat i sae...u will jux take everythg for granted...thking tat i am juz nagging...n who is the one who sae tat saying sorrie is nt a pt in relationship...whenever u thks tat it is ur fault u will juz sae sorrie...n expect mie to forgiv u...all the time to u...i juz wan to occupy u...pls lor...u are spending time working n with ur grps of frenx...the time tat u spend with them flies...while the time u spend with mie...is veri slow...so to u...u thk tat u are spending a lot of time with mie then with them...going out with them u will be the one to plan everythg...going out with mie...i hv to be the one to plan...we cant juz go out sit down n tok...the purpose of both of us going out mux be tat we wan to go get sm stuffs...u will nv ever realised tat u are spending a lot of time with ur frenx...even if u are reading tis blog...u are jux scanning thru...nv really thoroughly read thru n understand wat i wan to sae...perhaps to u...i am juz like a irritating gf who is always nagging at u...but hv u ever come to understand hw i feel n wat i am trying to sae...to u...i nag at u is bcoz i dun wan u to go out with them BUT i wan u to accompany mie...<--tis is the kind of impression tat i am giving u...a lot of unhappie thgs u dun wan mie to do...i will jux listen...but u...do u ever bother to listen to wat i dun wan u to do...if one dae we do really brk up...it will be soup spoon's fault...certain thgs tat u enjoy...i cant go...u hv to understand y...our age gap is 4 yrs...i am nt like xin yi whose parents is giving her so much freedom...even if i am her...i will noe moi limits...nt going out almost everydae until damn damn late like nobody's business...ask u to accompany is juz like calling u to go n die...while they call u to go out with them...is juz like calling u to enjoy urself...f*ck...i am ur stead...nt a frenx who is like mei lan bothering u...i really dunno wat to do...to u...i will alwayx be the same...even if i change for the sake of tis relationship...to u...i will still be the same...coz u NEVER EVER bother to understand wat is wrong with mie....
♥ 9:56:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, October 15, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
tis is moi class de "quan jia fu"...seldom will c moi class so cooperative...hahaha...we took tis photo bcoz we are making gifts for our dear t-chers...c the bright smile on every faces...actually every bright smile also symbolises sadness...all of us hv spent at least 2 yrs together...really misses them alot...when other photos come then i write more ya...hehe...take care guys...
♥ 8:57:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, October 13, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ok...todae in sch a veri fun thg happened...but poor thg tat particular guy who is being beaten up...he is quentin...a irritating ass of sec 5a...n he is really damn sickening...he even irritates teachers...watever it is...todae is his bdae...so 5a bois n 5b bois...hv presented him with a bdae bash...haha...bad...but he really deserve it...they are all taking the chance to take revenge...normally c pple being beaten up...i feel sad for them...while for him...special case...damn happie...fun...n shuang...tml is graduation nite...our class is gonna present him another bdae bash...coz we hv all tolerated his nonsense for 3 yrs...really suffering man...hmm...now while typing tis...i am also creating smthg specially to ms neo...our dear form tcher for 3 yrs...hahaha...dunno whether will she kana anythg frm moi class...todae tried to enjoy moiself with them...disturbing each other...enjoying ourselves as far as possible...ok...enough of sch stuffs...i thk u pple are more interested in moi relationship...gd news is...we hv nt brk up...everythg is veri smooth nw...bad news is...he still doesn't hv much time for mie...haix...ok...but he hv promised mie to spend all his free time with mie after moi o lvls...i also promised him to work hard for moi exams...haha...no pain no gain mah...hmm...but honestly speaking...he is really sm1 who moltivate mie,encourage mie,love mie n protects mie...thx to him...:)
♥ 10:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, October 10, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
No matter watever i do,
No matter watever i sae,
I jux can't change his mind,
However,
His actions hv hurt mie very deeply.
I hv shed tears,
I hv tried to do anythg,
I hv done everythg i can,
Jux nth can change his mind.
At any moment... ...
I might or might not lose him!
I DUN WAN TO LOSE HIM!!!
I DUN WAN TO BRK UP... ...
I do admit... ...
For a period of time,
I hv taken him for granted...
BUT now...
He is really veri important to mie.
BUT everythg jux seems to be too late...
I dunno when i will lose him.
I only noe...
Without him...
I will choose to end moi life.
Tis might be a stuppid act...
BUT he is tat important to mie.
However... ...
He is stubborn...
Veri stubborn...
Jux hope he could understand...
How i feel...
N wat i thk...
I LOVE YOU,DEAR~!!!
♥ 4:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, October 08, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
somethg tat made mie veri sad happened ytd nite...he miss his first stead...i understand coz is the first...n nt bcoz of the incident she wun leave him...he sae he misses her veri badly...worst is tat he said that she treats him veri well which is nt able to be compared with his other steads...haiz...they are together for 6 mths...while mie n him together for 2yrs n 2 mths le...y u still able to sae such a thg...n it hurt mie veri deeply...didnt get to slp well the whole nite...having sm mixture of feelings...wondering abt a lot of tots...haix...i really dunno wat to do...all i wan to do n sae is...hui min(his 1st stead's name)...if u are alwayx ard with him...pls do guide him n protect him...n hope u could bless our relationship...thx...he might nt be the 1st bf tat i hv in life...but he is the 1st one...tat make mie willingly to cope with tis bgr no matter wat...i dun wan to lose him...he is jux like moi everythg...n i really mean it...without him...i really dunno how to go on with moi life...lastly...laogong i luv u...no matter wat...i will be there to share ur everythg...dun keep it to urself...take care...
♥ 3:22:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, October 07, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
last few daes didnt blog...bcoz i simply hate tis com...it has a habit of auto re-start...let's nt tok abt the past few daes...juz tok abt todae...todae in sch learn a-maths frm pat...hmm...she teach...it sound so simple...but went i do...it burn moi brain cells...then after sch...call n msg him...afraid tat he might be late for work...but then ended up being scolded for scoring bad prelim results...haix...i also dun wan get such a bad results ar...at the same time rene msg mie...abt her n his problem...i juz felt a sudden brk down...thk tat i can't even solve moi problem but still help others...but after thking n cooling down...i realised i shd divide thgs clearly...haix...mie n his problem haven't settle...another problem came up...being scolded by moi mum for moi hp bills...haix...if tis is the case...i would rather at the start dun buy the phone...haix...todae everythg juz seems to be moi fault..n nxt fridae is graduation dae le...veri fast...moi 5 yrs in tis sch is gonna end soon...n the exam tat is going to predict moi future is coming too...have to work hard for it...nxt week graduation dae...after graduation dae...wan to organise outing with moi peeps...but i bet all sure dun wan de...bel will be occupied by dan...suzhen will keep herself occupied with boon teck...whereby other peeps...wans to go out with another grp of classmates...haix...but i still have him...hopefully nxt fridae he can come meet mie...then i wun be lonely n we can go out too...for a veri long period of time...we havent been enjoying ourselves le...always quarreling...haix...i gonna end here le...take care worx...
♥ 10:26:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, October 04, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
since the dae i hv last blog...lots of thgs happened...rene's ah ma passed away...left rene...she is sad...but she hv also came to understand everythg is life...on sat n sun went to the wake...on sat went with zhen n john...on sun went with loy n maine...hmm...did nt expect tis is the manner i meet loy n maine...hmm...as for rene...putting up her brave self...frm her face still can tell tat she misses her ah ma badly...well after the two busy daes...on sun nite quarrel with him...broke up for 24 hrs...on mondae...we patched again...unknowingly...coz we really luv each other...n wat...becoz of the busy weekends...i became ill...went to sch on mon...but early depart...return hm...rest for the whole dae...tues morning still ill...cant go sch...haiz...tell him abt it...n conclusion is i am nt drking enough water...dehydrated peishan...haha...well ytd nite...chat with him on phone...ask him abt work...he was upset...as he felt tat soup spoon treatment is veri biased...but laogong...tat is life n being biased is human nature ar...juz thk in a positive manner lor...watever it is...i suppose to be resting now...but felt tat havnt blog for many daes...so shd blog...hehe...end here le bah...take care worx...
♥ 11:57:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
