♥ ; Thursday, September 29, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
tis few daes hv been a little busy...busy trying to regain all moi energy tat i hv spent for the last few weeks...hv been slping damn damn early...so didnt hv the time to blog...finally nw i have...coz cannot slp...continue slp ar...no gd also...gt back prelim results...n it is very jialat...haiz...dun care...do better for o lvls...hee...hmm...another thg is tat...tis few daes laogong hv been accompanying mie...so it is keeping moi stress lvl low...but i am afraid when is soup spoon's payday...everythg will become very horrible...haiz...wat ever it is...i hv told moi self tis few daes to control moi self nt to quarrel with him ...or giv him stress...coz giv him stress...moi stress is double...tat dae i am touched by wat he said...coz he seems to finally understand hw i feel...hope he really do...watever it is...i hv been controlling moi feelings...telling moi self...he felt tat he hv already spent a lot time for mie...n he wans to be with his frenx...really trying to hold back everythg...jux to moi self...haix...juz afraid tat he tis week accompany mie for so many daes...n nxt week he will juz tell mie he hv outings n he cant accompany mie...i dun wan him to one week spent a lot of time with mie...then nxt few weeks quarrel or he jux totally no time for mie...haix...
To HIM...
i am keeping moi feeling frm u...bcoz i dun wan u to be stress out..but as usual..ur laopo is still a sensitive person...no matter wat...as for xinyi...i dun dare to sae anythg...or do anythg...coz i juz felt tat no matter wat...u will side her...n we will ended up quarreling...n quarrel is jux doubling moi stress...dunno whether do u understand...but at least i hv already told u moi feelings...sorrie...i noe i am nt a gd gf...i wan to be one...but nothing can change mie...sorrie...haiz...watever it is...u noe i love u veri much...hwever...i am still the girl u noe since 20th July 2003...
♥ 6:31:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, September 25, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
on 23rd quarrel with him again...haix...y...becoz of her again...i jux dun like her...y dun he understand...perhaps he has started to be sick n tired of tis relationship le...he became smone who only care for his frenx...no more the person who always shower mie with care n concern...took a long time to really consider whether shd we continue with tis relationship...i dun wan every mth only on 24th...both of us then will be happie...haix...really thking shall we end...while u didnt wan to end...but y are u treating mie in tis manner...heard u playing with them so happily...can even dun bother to reply moi msgs...haix...all i can sae is tat i hv fall veri deeply into the trap but then it seems to be nth to u...do we really wan to continue...btw...u said u treat her only as a sister...but she as a sister can receive so much care n concern frm u...perhaps i wld rather be ur sister than ur gf...she work n fall sick...i didnt work but nt feeling well...in tis two cases...hv different treatment...then i wld rather nxt time i am sick...i keep quiet...ytd we celebrated our 2 yrs n 2 mth de month-sary...we are happie to be together...but u shd noe...there is still smthg in our hearts...do u still truly luv mie...???i am veri sad for everythg...tell u certain thgs...but u are alwayx siding her...wat am i suppose to do...haix...wateva...i am veri happie to go out with u ytd...even went to the lantern safari with ur mum...it is a gd dae...but everythg jux end veri quickly...haix...nvm...once again we todae might be going to quarrel again...haix...nvm...sooner or later...i will choose to giv up...no matter hw much i am hurt...take care...
♥ 1:09:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, September 21, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hey...todae finally last paper...but one veri sickenig thg is tat...there is no marking dae...n so tml need to go to sch...sian sia...as for mie n him...ok lor...so so...hope nth will AGAIN happened n coz us to quarrel again...btw thx rene for ur concern...but i am alrite...todae everyone is out to play n relax...only mie...poor mie...stay at hm to slack...rene study until 5 n start work at 6...laogong work until tonite 11...haix...todae hv a little chat with bel...ask her hw n when she celebrating her 1 yr...n guess wat...she sae tat she cant celebrate...coz she afraid go out will kana spotted by her family...honestly speaking...wat for afraid...sooner or later...there is still a need to let the family noe...unless she doesn't wan to last long with him...btw...i hv start to keep away frm soup spoon...coz of all the sickening stares n diao...n f*cking innocent look...i dun care wat all of u will sae abt mie...but juz dun hypocrite as u will become a BITCH or a BASTARD...which is nt a very gd thg...as wat i told him...i will only enter soup spoon when i wan to go there drk soup n stuffs...by then i thk they dun hv the rite to stare at mie...coz i am a customer...haix...k lah...end here le...
♥ 4:23:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, September 18, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i am damn damn pissed with him tis few daes...y cant he jux understand wat am i trying to bring across to him...n am i demanding a lot frm u...perhaps to u yes...coz to u going out with ur frenx are normal...but u dun hv a limit...u sae tat u dun wanna quarrel n stuff...but hv u ever understand hw i feel n wat am i thking...telling u everythg seems to jux a waste of time...tok to u nicely dun wan listen...scream n shout at u...u unhappie...i sae i everythg also dun care...u dun wan...wat u wan mie to do?i really dunno wat to do...u are saying u hv spent a lot of time with mie for the past two yrs already...i can tell u...it is different...if u thk tat spending time with mie for the past two yrs is more than enough...then y dun u jux sae u wanna brk...since u hv claim tat u hv spent a lot of time with mie...i really dunno wat u wan...u wan ur freedom...jux let mie noe...n we will jux brk up...n all of ur business is none of my business already...izzit veri hard to jux reply moi one msg?u dun even wan to reply moi one msg...obviously i will keep msging u...n telling u i hate xin yi...is juz wanna let u noe nt to get too close to her...but to u...dun seems a thk...perhaps to u i am juz damn damn unreasonable...n u sae going out with those pple...u are juz trying to enjoy urself...ithen i shall asume tat u going out with mie is very boring...if tat is so...juz tell mie...we will nv go out anymore...u will jux go out with those pple...who u hvnt even noe their true faces...they are nt as innocent as u thk...nt as friendly as u thk...i jux wanna noe wat u wan mie to do...get out of ur life?to u everythg seems nth...but ur actions n moi life make mie veri stress out...hw i hope i can juz leave tis fucking world...at least i wun hv anymore worries n troubles n pple hating mie...those pple dun understand mie n they dunno wat am i thking...i dun blame them for hating other pple...as for u...i tell u everythg...u shd noe n understand...but wat am i treated like?felt tat i am a burden in ur life...jux tell mie...n i will fuck off...
♥ 2:31:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, September 14, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
todae i die die also wan blog...went out with laogong n i am veri happie...coz veri long no go out so happily le...but todae every one ard kip looking at us...coz laogong dressed very formally for his cousin's wedding after our outing...todae after chemistry paper...i meet him at bugis...took a long time to thk of wat to grab for lunch...finally...decided to get KFC...after eating...went to shop ard...went to mickey industry to show laogong the jeans tat i like...heex...then went to lovely land...wan to find nice nice de jigsaw puzzle...coz end of the yr...i wan to buy n fix it with laogong at hm...then go window shopping ard...laogong went to c his i-dog...he wan to buy it...but he dun wan waste money...i wan to save money n buy for him...then went to lafon...saw a watch veri nice...wan to buy...but then laogong sae end of the week then buy...coz laogong todae nv bring atm card...sm more the watch gt two size...so wan to buy as couple watch...then walk ard...then decided to watch movie...we watched the cave...the impact of the show make mie veri frighten...after the movie...went to soup spoon...coz laogong wan to check his schedule...after tat walk to suntec...to take bus with laogong...he gt down at bugis to take mrt...i continue moi journey hm...reached hm le...then type tis blog lor...heex...
♥ 9:13:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, September 12, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...the last time i blog was quite long ago...hmm...todae i will record sm happie thgs...on 7th sept...mi n laogong went out to chinatown...laogong wan go there buy dvd...after buying dvd...we also bought a lot of food n he also bought mie a wallet...then went to laogong's hse to relax...we also took a nap b4 going hm...reached hm le...i realised i am veri happie...coz laogong pei mie the whole dae...kinda long nv like tat le...unfortunately...on fridae nite we quarreled again...over a outing tat involve smone tat i dun like...haix...n also bcoz he is sick on tat dae...didn't wan him to ton out...n also being selfish...wan him to acompany mie...i tried very hard a contact him tat nite...but he dun wan to ans moi phone...then finally morninghe came over...also told myself nt to be angry with him anymore...thking tat he could rest until he start work at 3pm...but then...he made mie angry again...he promised them to go kbox...n he is meeting them at 1030am...haiz...realised tat he dun understand wat am i thking...finally by sat noon everythg is ok...realised he is very impt to mie...didn't wan to lose him...on tat nite i went to soup spoon to look for him...while he is doing closing...due to our quarrel...aaron diao mie...wat the hell...he thk xiao mei mei is for him to bully de ar...pls...si pai de ren...woo so many ger...but no one wans u...pierce the ear...then wear pink colour shirt...like gay lor...kns...*enough of venting anger...* tried to ignore him...wait for laogong...then went off le...went to chomp chomp to eat with moi brox n his frenx...after eating went hm...bath the i orh orh le...coz very tired...yar...sat...adam celebrated his bdae too...21st bdae...hmm...he veri touched...moi jie jie n his family done a lot for him...wish him a HAPPIE 21st BDAE!!!i tired le...i dun wan blog liao...nxt time then continue...
To Be Continued....
♥ 10:01:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, September 05, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
as wat i tell rene...i very long no blog le...hmm...past few daes a lot of unhappie thgs happened...perhaps i shd record sm happie moments to neutralise it...on 3rd of sept...he nv work...as wat i promise him...went to food fair n comex fair...sickening places...as everyone is squeezing their way thru...n i hate tis...as u will be touch by strangers...sux...then tis time de food fair kanasai lor...nth unique at all...as for comex...thgs quite cheap but lotx of pple...after walking...went hm...quite a happie dae...but tis wun last long...4th of sept...went to soup spoon to meet him at 430pm...to go comex get smthg for his godsister n get himself a portable speaker...his tu di...xin yi came along...due to moi observen character...i started to observe her...she is a rather anit-social ger...but she understand him kinda well...with the compile of the incidence past few daes...i felt smthg very wrong...once again i observe again todae...nth much...but heard frm rene smthg tat make mie blood boil...watever it is...i hate tis kind of thgs...perhaps he noes...watever...BLASTING!!!
♥ 7:14:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, September 02, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
todae had moi english prelim paper...after the paper...meet rene then went to soup spoon to find him...everythg was well from 1300hr onwards...until 1630hr...SHE came...i dun hv gd impression of her...i alwayx have the feeling tat SHE is flirting with him...wat the hell...at tat particular moment hw i hope i'm blind and deaf...or even better to lose all moi senses and even moi feelings...i dun deny tat SHE is prettier than mie...BUT PLEASE GET THGS CLEAR...HE IS MINE!!!worst come to worst...he thks tat i am being unreasonable...PLEASE...NOT TAT I WAN TOO...BUT PLEASE DO TAKE NOTE OF UR OWN ACTIONS...i dun wan to be bad to sae all tis thgs but who noes hw i feel...imagine seeing ur love one being flirt by BITCHES and do nth...maybe other pple can tolerate and do nth...BUT I CAN'T...SHE have coz mie to reach the veri top of moi tolerance level...could u imagine to be hurt rite in front of u...i am damn PISSED...but SHE might feel veri shiok to tok to him n flirt with him...SHE is such a BITCHY SLUT to do such a thg rite in front of his gf...F*CKING HELL...wan him help u keep thgs while HER "BOYFRIEND" is also there...muz as well call him to F*CK HER nt better...
I call HER a BITCHY SLUT...Bcoz SHE is jux too much...OR maybe I should let him noe...if he wan HER...call him to go ahead to get HER...
♥ 6:26:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
