♥ ; Saturday, May 06, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
now totally no one understands mie..he use to understand mie..but nw he is totally ignoring mie..worst come to worst..even moi so called bestie dun understand wat i am thking..who can help mie..tot she can..told her tat smthgs is happening ard him..saying tat he hv made lots of changes..even in his thking..but she said to mie..so nw who are u to care abt him..yes..i am no one to care abt him..BUT MOI LUV FOR HIM IS STILL THERE..DUN I HV THE RITES TO CARE FOR SMONE TAT I LUV!!watever she replied mie..hv hurt mie super deeply..when ever she nids help..i will always try moi best to be there for her..but wat the f*ck..when i'm super upset..where the hell is she..tis is call bestie..i'm jux worried abt him upon hearing all those thgs abt him..jux nid smone listen to mie..but wat kind of attitude i receive frm her..nt-moi-business attitude..then wat for whenever u n derrick hv unhappiness..i hv to be ur listening ears..i'm there for u..but who is there for mie?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!i'm already soooooooo worried for him..for all the changes he made..for all the thking tat he hv changed..for pple who is ard him..dun even noe are they really guiding him to the good..or making his life worst..i'm jux simply sooooo worried..jux nid smone to spill moi hearts..but wat the f*ck..wat kind of attitude i receive frm her..i really dunno wat to do..no one can help mie at all..y do i hv to brk down n be all on moi own..i am a human with feelings..u can bcoz of a 1yr bf who treat u like shit..totally dun bother abt mie..then perhaps i shd oso treat u like shit..everythg is so unfair to mie..i wan to go n shuan ming liao..c wat the hell is wrong in moi life..1st lost moi truly luv bf..2nd hv a bestie tat start to treat mie like shit..only treat mie like a gold when she nid advices,nid listening ears,nid smone to cover her at work,nid smone to accompany her when totally NO ONE could..whenever she nids help in anyway..it will be mie..WHO NOES HW I FEEL..LOSING SMONE TAT I LUV SOOOOOOOO MUCH..CAN BE FRENX..BUT HE IS IGNORING MIE..WAT AM I TO DO..KILL MOI SELF TO END ALL THIS SUFFERINGS..JUX WAN TO BE FRENX..BUT NO IDEA WAT IS WRONG WITH HIM..N WHO THE HELL HAVE MADE HIM HV SUCH A BIG CHANGE..I NOE HE WANS TO BE SUCCESSFUL..HE WANS TO FULFILL ALL HIS DREAMX..I NOE HE WANS TO CLEAR ALL HIS FAMILY DEBTS..I NOE HE DUN WAN HIS PARENTS TO BE XIN KU..BUT WATEVER HE IS DOING NW IS TIRING HIMSELF..MAKING HIM STRESS..MAKING EVERYONE WORRIED..NOT ONLY MIE..BUT ALL HIS FRENX..BUT WAT CAN I DO?!?!?!?!WHEN I'M WITH HIM YES..I CAN TRY TO PERSUADE HIM..GIV HIM ADVICES..BUT NOW..WILL HE LISTEN TO MIE..HE WILL JUX WAN MIE TO F*CK OFF FRM HIS LIFE..BUT DO HE NOE TAT MOI CONCERN IS BCOX I'M WORRIED..I'M WORRIED TAT HE WILL FALL INTO PPLES' TRAP..I'M AFRAID HE WILL JUX GO BOGUS..I'M AFRAID HE WILL BE GUIDED BY WRONG PPLE..WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!I CAN'T JUX LET GO..I CAN'T..DO HE NOE TAT I AM VERY WORRIED ABT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HOW I HOPE I COULD JUX DIE..N END ALL THIS SUFFERINGS..BUT I JUX CAN'T BEAR TOO..I CAN'T LET GO EVERYTHG..YES..MAYBE HE WUN WAN MIE TO CARE ABT A SINGLE SHIT ABT HIM..BUT DO HE NOE..I'M DAMN WORRIED..N I CANT CONTROL ALL TIS..IT IS ALL NATURAL FEELINGS..UNLESS SMONE JUX KILL MIE OR WHEN I'M DEAD.. .. .. .. ..
♥ 6:01:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
