♥ ; Friday, December 16, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
Wonderful outing wif moi tat bunch of hao jiu bu jian de close frenx...everyone is busy wif our lifes so waited for so many yrs den we are able to gather together...other den the part tat ah john is late...everythg was smooth lor...after the outing...reach hm kinda late...reach hm ard 12mn...sit down wif him to tok thgs out...he hv set a period of two mths...which is until the end of feb...to c is our patch a gd decision or wat...a lot of tots run thru moi mind...he wan patch izzit due to responisiblity?frm the start of our patch he izzit already plan to hv the period of time...i always felt tat i hv been troubling him a lot...nw really wan to get a job work liao then return him the money...i noe he dun mind...but i dun feel gd in mie...i am oso wondering tat he izzit always hving the thking tat i wan to patch with him is bcoz i wan to find chance to brk him...sometimes really wonder...patching with him is a rite decision or am i creating trouble to his life...nw he is stress out due to his dad's stall again...TSS is oso became a unstable job to him...worried tat thgs might come up between us again due to all his stress...tried letting go him by giving him more freedom ba...n celebrating christmas ant...is no more impt le...rene asked mie...do i still hv a strong feeling for him...or am i trying to 4get him b4 our 2 mths de period is up...moi ans is...perhaps bcoz he once hurt mie so deeply...tat hv made mie lose the courage to step into tis relationship again...i nid time ba...hw long...i wun noe...but 2 mths is insufficient...cox i dun change moi fear easily...watever it is...if everythg wanna be in tis manner...i oso hv no choice...i could only play moi own part properly...
♥ 11:13:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
