♥ ; Sunday, October 30, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
2nd dae le...done lots of reflection thru out the nite...realised tat it is moi fault to be alwayx acting so unreasonable...realli regretted with moi actions...realli wan to prove him tat i hv realised moi mistakes...but he juz dun seems to be willing to giv mie another chance...he is extremely impt to mie...memorise of 27 mths is nt so easy to be 4gotten...he is avoiding moi calls...n ignoring moi msgs...hw could he be so hard hearted...decided to giv him until 1st nov...to thk thru whether do he wanna patch...so control moiself nt to contact him...i am hurt...very hurt inside...tml is o lvl chinese...but juz dun hv the mood to thk of it...all moi attention is on tis relationship...moi luv for him is no more juz puppy luv...realli luv him with all moi heart...but he juz dun wan to care abt mie...hw i wish i could juz end moi life...end moi sufferings...without him in moi life...must as well take away moi life...so tat i wun hv to suffer so much...he make mie fall realli deeply for him...n nw he juz ignore mie totally...juz nw call him...he asked mie y still kip calling him...saying tat i hv gav him until 1st nov...y still kip contacting him...i sae those thgs but u didnt reply mie...i realli dunno wat to do...no one can help mie...n no one knows hw hurt i am...u said even if i gav u until 1st nov n thk...u will nv change ur mind...but hv u ever thk of hw i feel...27 mths of relationship...took mie 2 yrs to 4get abt a 5 mths relationship...n fall realli deeply for u...n nw our 27 mths juz end like tat...nt even a single chance...nt tat i wan to bother u...but i realli cant let go...rene sae is time to let go...but it is nt so easy...using mouth to sae is easy but the actions is tough n hurtful...mum wans mie to concentrate on moi studies...without him ard...moi life is in a total mess...hw am i to concentrate...at least if he gives mie sm hope for tis relationship...i will still better...but no...juz within 1 dae...he sae brk then brk...nt tat we dun hv feelings for each other...it is juz becoz of mie...but nw i realli reflected...realli reflected...y he cant jux giv mie another chance...u dun wan to listen to mie...but will u listen to others...realli hope tat sm1 could juz help mie...i realli done a lot of thking...without him for 2 daes...moi life is realli lifeless...no mood to eat...no mood for any other activity...cant slp...took the whole nite everydae to reflect on our relationship...it is realli moi fault for nt being understanding...but being more unreasonable...i realli realised moi mistakes...realli...hw i hope he could c all these...but i thk it is less possible...nw tat i am controlling moiself nt to contact him will realli giv him the chance to thk over abt our relationship...he kip saying he doesnt wan to tok abt tis anymore...but i realli felt unfair...he didnt explain or giv mie the chance to prove him...realli hurt mie...pls dun treat mie in tis manner...u realli hurt mie...hope u could find sm1 to tok...n ask for opinions...n hope tat tat person is a angel who could help mie n bless tis relationship...realli dun wan tis relationship to be sour anymore...i wan it to be sweet...n i will realli treat him well...if he giv mie another chance...i realli wan him to be moi laogong 4ever...realli...realli waiting for gd news frm him on 1st nov...even if he sets conditions or tell mie...he will only patch with mie after moi o lvls...i also dun mind...as long as he giv mie sm hope to tis relationship...i juz dun wan it to end...realli...pls bless us...pls help us...take care...
♥ 8:24:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
