♥ ; Saturday, May 13, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i'm letting go le..but u still doesn't reply moi msgs..no idea y..but..nvm..i wun be tat despo..u wan reply then reply..is jux tat u reply means we're frenx...n i mean normal frenx..but u dun reply..means we are nth..watever it is..it is up to u..i cant force u afterall..all moi chances is out there..no pt jux stay put for u..which is like u nv ever appreciate anymore..so many gd guys..but chosen u..but wat u tell mie..u wasted all ur time..yar..wat those guys sae are rite..u're too much..watever time i spend for u..i bcoz of moi luv for u at tat moment..but u said tis..i'm bitchy tat's all..pamper u..luv u..care for u..n tis is wat i get in return..thanx..really thanx..to u..u only thk u r sacrificing..i shd tell u..u are the one who is selfish..u wan mie to listen to watever f*ck shit tat u sae..jux like a DOG..care for u..it is like all nt appreciated..advise u..u thk tat all i wan is u to accompany mie..nv ever thk tat i really is thk for u..u dun appreciate watever i do..wat for i stay here..wait for u..whereby the time is still going on..u regretted for all the time u spend for mie..i regretted putting all moi effort to luv u..care for u..advise u..help u beware of thgs in life..n tis is wat i get..I REALLY REGRETTED..REALLY REGRETTED..THANX..ALL THANX TO U..ALTHOUGH THE MEMORIES ARE THERE..BUT SOON..SOMEONE WILL JUX REPLACE EVERYTHG..HOPE U SOON SUCCESS IN UR LIFE..N FIND SOMEONE WHO IS REALLY WHO U WAN AS A GIRLFRIEND..AS A WIFE..HELP MIE BRING REGARDS TO YOUR PARENT..YOUR AH MA OSO..=)
♥ 9:38:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, May 06, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
I'M NOT CELEBRATING MOI BDAE ANYMORE..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥ 8:04:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
now totally no one understands mie..he use to understand mie..but nw he is totally ignoring mie..worst come to worst..even moi so called bestie dun understand wat i am thking..who can help mie..tot she can..told her tat smthgs is happening ard him..saying tat he hv made lots of changes..even in his thking..but she said to mie..so nw who are u to care abt him..yes..i am no one to care abt him..BUT MOI LUV FOR HIM IS STILL THERE..DUN I HV THE RITES TO CARE FOR SMONE TAT I LUV!!watever she replied mie..hv hurt mie super deeply..when ever she nids help..i will always try moi best to be there for her..but wat the f*ck..when i'm super upset..where the hell is she..tis is call bestie..i'm jux worried abt him upon hearing all those thgs abt him..jux nid smone listen to mie..but wat kind of attitude i receive frm her..nt-moi-business attitude..then wat for whenever u n derrick hv unhappiness..i hv to be ur listening ears..i'm there for u..but who is there for mie?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!i'm already soooooooo worried for him..for all the changes he made..for all the thking tat he hv changed..for pple who is ard him..dun even noe are they really guiding him to the good..or making his life worst..i'm jux simply sooooo worried..jux nid smone to spill moi hearts..but wat the f*ck..wat kind of attitude i receive frm her..i really dunno wat to do..no one can help mie at all..y do i hv to brk down n be all on moi own..i am a human with feelings..u can bcoz of a 1yr bf who treat u like shit..totally dun bother abt mie..then perhaps i shd oso treat u like shit..everythg is so unfair to mie..i wan to go n shuan ming liao..c wat the hell is wrong in moi life..1st lost moi truly luv bf..2nd hv a bestie tat start to treat mie like shit..only treat mie like a gold when she nid advices,nid listening ears,nid smone to cover her at work,nid smone to accompany her when totally NO ONE could..whenever she nids help in anyway..it will be mie..WHO NOES HW I FEEL..LOSING SMONE TAT I LUV SOOOOOOOO MUCH..CAN BE FRENX..BUT HE IS IGNORING MIE..WAT AM I TO DO..KILL MOI SELF TO END ALL THIS SUFFERINGS..JUX WAN TO BE FRENX..BUT NO IDEA WAT IS WRONG WITH HIM..N WHO THE HELL HAVE MADE HIM HV SUCH A BIG CHANGE..I NOE HE WANS TO BE SUCCESSFUL..HE WANS TO FULFILL ALL HIS DREAMX..I NOE HE WANS TO CLEAR ALL HIS FAMILY DEBTS..I NOE HE DUN WAN HIS PARENTS TO BE XIN KU..BUT WATEVER HE IS DOING NW IS TIRING HIMSELF..MAKING HIM STRESS..MAKING EVERYONE WORRIED..NOT ONLY MIE..BUT ALL HIS FRENX..BUT WAT CAN I DO?!?!?!?!WHEN I'M WITH HIM YES..I CAN TRY TO PERSUADE HIM..GIV HIM ADVICES..BUT NOW..WILL HE LISTEN TO MIE..HE WILL JUX WAN MIE TO F*CK OFF FRM HIS LIFE..BUT DO HE NOE TAT MOI CONCERN IS BCOX I'M WORRIED..I'M WORRIED TAT HE WILL FALL INTO PPLES' TRAP..I'M AFRAID HE WILL JUX GO BOGUS..I'M AFRAID HE WILL BE GUIDED BY WRONG PPLE..WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!I CAN'T JUX LET GO..I CAN'T..DO HE NOE TAT I AM VERY WORRIED ABT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HOW I HOPE I COULD JUX DIE..N END ALL THIS SUFFERINGS..BUT I JUX CAN'T BEAR TOO..I CAN'T LET GO EVERYTHG..YES..MAYBE HE WUN WAN MIE TO CARE ABT A SINGLE SHIT ABT HIM..BUT DO HE NOE..I'M DAMN WORRIED..N I CANT CONTROL ALL TIS..IT IS ALL NATURAL FEELINGS..UNLESS SMONE JUX KILL MIE OR WHEN I'M DEAD.. .. .. .. ..
♥ 6:01:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, May 05, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
我更爱他了..
我又掉泪了..
我想告诉你.. ..我更爱你了!!
♥ 9:06:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, May 03, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
went to view his friendster..saw tat he hv cut his hair..into a manner tat he always wanted..happie for him..but all a sudden i feel like crying..wanted to put everythg down..but deep down in moi hearts..everythg is there..in a small corner of moi heart..always tot tat i am tat strong..tat i hv forgotten abt him..but everythg is there..until the key is used to unlock it..the circuit is connected..i cried..again i cried..the more i sae i wan to forget abt him..the more everythg is there..he wan mie to leave on with moi life..saying is easy..but i can't..i really dunno wat to do anymore..do i hv to everydae leave in such misery..crying myself to slp..nt letting anyone noe..nt even moi bestie..going thru tat thg myself..i'm going thru it again..hope tis time round everythg will be fine to mie..again i hv to bleed for 3 4 weeks..haiz..serve myself rite..i am the one who wan to get myself into such a deep shit..suddenly flash back of tat time he accompany mie thru it..his concern n care..n saw tat worried expression frm him..knew tat he really luv mie..accompanied mie thru the whole process..trying his best to make mie feel comfortable..make mie nt to worry..try to get moi favourite winnie for mie with jux $1..but he fail to d so..but tat doesn't matter..tat means hw much he care for mie..but nw..i hv to go thru everythg moiself..haix..hope i will be fine..
♥ 10:11:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, April 29, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm..one thg i really hv to admite here..I MISS HIM..i tried nt to msg him..n i can resist the urge..but deep down in moi heart i noe..i still misses him a lot..but one thg..he didn't even ean to appreciate mie as a frenx..so it is more impossible tat he will wan to reply moi msgs..even if i really do msg him..the person who said tat dun wan to end until so ugly de is him..n nw making the whole thg look so saddist de is oso him..i dun expect him to patch..jux wan him to reply moi msgs..smtimes i really nid him a lot..n certain thgs only between us..but he jux dun seems to care..he wans to treat mie in tis manner..making mie totally couldn't turn to anyone..n nth could be done..will i jux die one dae..nt even noe wat hv happened..all i suffer is pain..really dunno wat to do..n who to face too..continue like tat wat will happen to mie..
♥ 7:19:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie..i'm down with fever again..very high tis time..no idea wat is wrong with mie..keep falling sick..but when it is dae time..i'm super fine..super health..haix..hope i'm okie..continue like tis..i'm gonna brk down again..feel tat i'm burning..haix..
♥ 2:40:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, April 27, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i'm sick..sick for 3 daes le..sore throat..on n off de fever..diarrhoe..haix..got so much rest..but still can fall sick..dunno y..afraid it hv happened again..if it really do..wat am i suppose to do..haix..watever it is..i'm nt gonna thk so much any more..hv to look forward to moi life ahead..if he wans to contact n be frenx..he will be the one to msg mie..but i bet he wun..if he really belongs to mie..he will be back to moi side oso..jux tat the luv is there..perhaps he do luv mie..but he is really jux to tired to continue le bah..watever it is..look forward..
♥ 6:52:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
For two daes respectively..i have been dreaming abt him..miss him very much..those dreams are so sweet..make mie very reluctant to wake up..hwever..happie memories doesn't last..i miss him very much..i noe it couldn't be brought back anymore..but i jux wanna maintain frenx with him..but it jux seems to be so tough..coz he couldn't accept mie..those dreams made mie very happie..really very happie..but they are jux dreams..i dun expect him to come back to moi side..but at least jux treat mie like a frenx..he can treat everyone so well..xin yi,jun xian,aaron..all his frenx are treated so well..jux like bros n sis to him..but y am i so special..i am totally isolated by him..dun he noe tat by doing tis..i will be even more hurt..y until nw he still cant thk to moi feelings..he will jux thk tat i'm fan..hw abt others who msg him n call him..they are nt fan to him..only mie..only mie is fan..
♥ 11:08:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, April 25, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
Having lots of complicated feelings again..missing him..but couldn't contact him..seriously hurt..i noe it is impossible to be with him le..but hv packed up moi feelings jux to be frenx..he oso dun seems to understand..we hv been together for 2yrs ++..of coz it wun be easy for mie to forget everythg so easily n so thoroughly..really dunno wat to do..i'm in a lost world again..totally lost..someone pls help mie..pls..pls..pls..pls..pls..
♥ 11:13:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, April 23, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
why do u hv to treat mie in tis manner..came to moi hse take ur thgs when i'm nt ard..y can't u jux let mie c u..ask u to meet..u oso dun wan to reply moi msgs..do u hv to treat mie in tis manner..do u hv to make mie suffer so much..i really dunno wat to do..how i hope i could hv a way to end all tis..it is really torturing mie everydae..do u really hv to treat mie in tis manner..wat am i suppose to do then u r happie..i go n die..
♥ 4:23:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, April 21, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
wee~~~..feeling alittle happie..coz todae msg him..n he replied..hahaha..abit mad..but i really dun like the feeling of msging him..n he totally doesn't wan to reply..yes..maybe he hv hurt mie with his words..but due to the luv i hv for him..i'm nt angry with him..but i still do take it to heart..although he didn't msg mie anythg fancy..jux telling mie to take care of myself..make mie happie tat he still concern..but perhaps he afraid his msg will giv mie false hope..so the way he msg..make mie thk tat his trying to tell mie "aaa..u dun thk so much hor~~!!!"..but still happie tat he did reply..make it might be the 1st time he reply mie..n oso the last time..but i wun noe..jux noe tat he is still tat precious to mie..dun wan to fan him..dun wan to irritate him..dun wan to giv him trouble..jux wan him to noe tat i am in his world..supporting him..be it moral support..i will always be there for him..couldn't msg him all these..coz he dun like..he will thk tat i am irritating him..all i wan him to noe is tat i'm there for him..perhaps he wun read all these..but everythg is really from moi <3..
if u do read.. .. ..
jux wan u to noe..i'm there for u..u nid sm1 to support u..dun keep keeping thgs to urself..voice it out..can't find anyone..i will be there..jux giv mie a call or msg mie..really dun wan u to get stress out..being hurt..or wat so ever..but if really dun nid mie to support u..even jux moral support..let mie noe..i will jux mo mo de shou hu ni..
♥ 11:29:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i noe it is weird to blog at such a wee hr..but i can't help it..i really miss him a lot..but i couldn't le t him noe..i really miss everythg tat he gav mie..really hope to be back with him..but i noe it is impossible..everyone ask mie to giv him time to thk over..but he hv already told mie tat he hv made his stand tat he will nv ever patch..i wan to wait for him..but will there be chance..shd i wait..i eally dunno..i only noe..i hv fall deeply for him..bcoz of him..i hv slpless nites..wat am i to do..i'm lost again..
♥ 1:51:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, April 20, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
Made tis video for him..
♥ 11:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
friendster a lot of frenx..doesn't mean all of them are there for mie..a lot of friends..doesn't mean they are true friends..i really dunno wat are u thking..u shd noe moi life most clearly..as we hv been together for 2yrs plus..
♥ 7:52:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i'm being scolded..
scolded for bothering him..
i didn't wan to bother him..
but i jux cant hold back moi feelings..
i'm so deeply in luv with him..
his words really hurt mie..
hurt mie very deeply..
dunno whether will he noe tat he hurt mie..
dunno whether he said those thgs is really from his heart..
or izzit he juz wan mie to giv up on him..
i'm so deeply in luv with him..
not sae giv up then can giv up de..
i nid time..
lots of time..
jux to pull myself back together..
i'm shattered..
i'm sad..
so sad tat i hv to drown myself with tears before bed..
all i hope is his understanding..
nt sae "fang qi" then can "fang qi" de..
i'm still not use to the life without him..
♥ 6:58:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
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Quality Timewith a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.
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| Acts of Service: | | 9 |
| Physical Touch: | | 4 |
| Words of Affirmation: | | 4 |
| Receiving Gifts: | | 1 |
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♥ 6:56:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, April 19, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i felt tat i am a useless bump..i miss him so much..even after he said those thgs to hurt mie..i miss his hugs..i miss his smiles..i miss his warmth..i miss his kisses..i miss our outings..i miss the times tat we hv pillow fights..i miss the time tat he play arcade..i miss the way he dance..i miss alot of thgs..i really miss him lotx..but no matter hw much i try to forget..the more i remember everythg..those thgs are deeply in moi memory..so clear..so sweet..yet nw everythg is so bitter..I REALLY MISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥ 11:36:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, April 17, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i'm hurt..
deeply hurt..
hurt by watever he said..
hurt by watever he done..
hurt by everythg..
totally lost conscious of life..
totally hv no idea wat am i suppose to do in life..
while to him..
everythg is nth..
he jux wan to live his own life..
y izzit like tis..
y is he so hard hearted..
y he can juz do such a thg to mie..
y he could jux hurt mie n treat it as nth..
y he could jux live his life on without being affected..
who can tell mie all the answers..
who can help mie..
someone pls help mie out of tis..
i'm hurt..
i'm injured..
i jux simply nid help..
someone jux help mie..
the more i try nt to thk of him..
the more i miss him..
the more i try to continue with moi life..
the more our memories fill moi heart..
y are all tis happening to mie..
y do i hv to suffer such torture..
i nid ans..i really nid ans..
♥ 10:17:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
yar char bo..i noe u wun be able to take all moi changes all at once..tell u tat i start to like clubbing life..wan to put tattoo..drking..even tot of taking up smoking..i noe u couldn't take tat i hv a big change..i change myself so much..is bcoz i felt tat if i dun change..i dun feel tat i hv forgotten him..n i really noe wat i am doing..certain boundaries i wun go over de..hahaha..trust mie..yes..it might be difficult to sae..but i noe wat am i doing..n wat i wan..after he left..i could feel smthg hv changed in mie..sm1 who use to be afraid of horror movies..nw totally treat it as nth..i most afraid thg is nt watching horror movies..is losing him..n nw i hv lose him..nth i am afraid anymore..sorrie to make u worry..but really..i hv change..nt outside..but inside..coz no money to change outside..hahahaha..take care..i will take care..n i noe wat am i doing..
♥ 9:31:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, April 15, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
rene..i gt another blog.. blurrymie.blogspot.com
♥ 4:55:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, April 11, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
I'm going to do smthg tis fridae..
i dunno whether it is rite or wrong..
but i hv decided to do it..
reason is simply bcoz..
i miss him..very miss him..
n he oso agree to the outing..
i noe a lot of pple might find mie stupid..
meet him again..c him again..
i will be more upset..
but..i really miss him alot..
pls understand..
rene..u sae u understand hw i feel..
but the impact is different.. ..
really very different.. ..
but i'm nt being unhappie..
jux wan moi feelings to be out..
coz i luv him for 2yrs plus..
when thru a lot..
n i really mean a lot..
u shd noe wat i mean..
laughter..joy..pain..heartaches..troubles..etc..
really nt easy to throw everythg aside..
♥ 8:31:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, April 09, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
After ups n downs..
After 2yrs 8mths n 16daes..
EVERYTHING HAVE JUX ENDED..
JUX WITH HIS "SHORT N SWEET" REASON..
HE IS TIRED..
EVERYTHING IS JUX SO UNFAIR TO MIE..
NO PROPER TALK..
NO PROPER EXPLANATION..
JUX WITH HIS WORDS..
I HAVE TO ALWAYS LISTEN TO WATEVER HE SAES..
HIS THE KING..
I HAVE TO GIVE IN TO WATEVER HE SAES..
OR I WILL BE "BEHEADED"..
I'M SELFISH..
WHO IS MORE SELFISH..
ONLY THINK OF HIMSELF..
NOT HAVING ENOUGH FREEDOM..
NOT HAVING TIME FOR HIS DREAMS TO BE FULFILLED..
WAT ABT MIE??
I JUX DUN SEEMS TO EXIST IN HIS WORLD..
♥ 11:27:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, April 08, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm..todae on..i will be working in Learning Capital de library..obviously as a librarian lah..hmm..hope everythg will be smooth ba..happie tat at least moi week end will be a little occupied by work..oso can earn sm money to pay moi bills..hopefully pamper myself..haha.. actually keeping myself occupied so tat i wun keep pestering him..once i hv spare time..i will start to thk tat he hv no time to pei mie..i'm sick in my mind..but tat is natural one mah..tis mth he hv two big TSS de events..so obviously i will feel neglected..but if i make a big fuse at him..he will thk tat i'm selfish n unreasonable..wat am i suppose to do..telling him..doesn't seems to make a difference..i really dunno wat to do..then will solve everythg between us..issit so difficult to jux dun do thgs tat i dun like..do i hv to be those kind of girls who are super duper understanding to their bf..until even they are neglected or 3rd party appear oso dun make a noise..nw toking to him..make mie feel tat there is a gap between us..wan to tok to him properly..but he dun seems to hv the time to spare mie..is he tired le mah..or i shd let him go..i'm really confused nw..jux hope he could spare mie time to tok to him bah..
♥ 1:21:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, April 06, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
tis is the photo tat laogong use his N70 to take de..haha..nxt mth..i might be getting moi N70 le o..haha..hmm..yesterdae laogong off..went out..at bugis walk walk..went to take neoprint..then walk ard..then decide to go get laogong de N70..bought the extra memory card n the protective casing too..he's happie..but wallet one big big hole..kinda xin tong lah..after buying..went to ms clarity cafe to eat..laogong took photos of the food..but didn't transfer into the com..the neoprint oso can't scan in..wait lah..wait until one dae..if i can..i will do it..haha..
♥ 3:11:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, April 02, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
F*CKING HELL..moi mum jux put password onto the com recently..n nw she change the password..pissing mie lor..wat i did wrong..moi bros noe the password ..but i dunno..when i noe it..it is changed away..before u put password..the com hv porn..n i guess u suspect is mie rite?sorrie..it is ur two sons..wat for i go c porn..neither it is jason..u shd noe ur son is going thru tis period now..u didn't get thgs clear n jux point ur finger at who u suspect..did u really ask n find out..if tis is wat u wan..then let mie noe..i will jux get out of tis hse..work n feed myself..to u..ur sons are innocent..to u..ur two elder daughter is obedient..to u..i am always rebelling..i am a human..i noe wat i wan..n even i step into a wrong step..it will jux be a learning experience to mie..i dun wan to be someone with no life..feel very pissed off with the way u are doing thgs..u always thk tat i am wrong..others are rite..even moi bf u thk tat he is nt good..he is who i choose to be with..even if in future we get married..n our life is suffering..is oso wat i hv chosen..to mie..i felt tat u only show respect to ur the other four kids..as for mie..is like kind of dun nid to respect kind of treatment..if tis is wat u thk..then pls get thgs rite..i am damn disappointed..u are always nt listening to thgs tat i am trying to tell u..i really dunno wat is rite wat is wrong..coming back hm..i felt so sick..coz i hv no one who i can share moi heart with..all i can to is to tok to moi frenx n jason..they listen to moi heart..wat abt u..i really dunno wat hv i done wrong..jux a simple heart..n thgs get so complicated..if u doesn't wan mie to touch the com or dun wan jason to use the com..jux open ur mouth..wat for keep it to urself..then when we use..u're unhappie..
♥ 10:38:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, April 01, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ytd was moi last dae at work after 2 n a half mths..finally get to rest man..went shopping with diza after work..went to eat n change laogong's bag..tis time round change le..n he like it a lot..hahaha..feel happie whenever i could get him smthg n tat smthg is he like de..hehehe..ytd is the last dae to c the bitch..perhaps..c oz i dun wanna c him again..hate the feeling of pple ordering mie ard..excuse mie bitch..who are u to do tat..bought a new pair of slippers n bought gina a top..haha..dunno whether will she like ant..but the top is very her lah..i mean is exactly those kind tat she always wear..miss everyone is ofc..it was a fine environment until those bitches became more bitchy..haix..nw waiting for moi appeal results..can go in ant..mux c tat le..if nt then go for other choice ba..hehehe..later meeting diza at 3pm for shopping then meet gina at harbourfront mrt at 7pm..huhuhu..spend spend spend...spend moi hard earn money..to relax abit..hehehe..got to go le..
♥ 9:58:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, March 22, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie..jux came back frm moi class chalet..there's unhappiness coz sm pple hv high expectation with jux small smt of money..so sad lor..put in all moi effort doing it..organising it..but it is nt appreciated..jux kinda unhappie..try to make thgs better tis yr..they jux expect cheap n gd..but where to find..haix..btw..overall..we had lots of fun n laughter..playing cards until the morning..went escape..BBQ-ing..hving fun together..except for sm sao xin de ren..unhappie tis..unhappie tat..perhaps tis the last yr tat i'm gonna organise for moi class le..cox laogong told mie nt to do it again..coz i making moiself to hv a hard time..sad to u class mates..dunno when then will c u guys again wor..take care..n thx..
♥ 6:16:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
two daes ago..heard tat i n gina is being backstabbed by sm1 tat we really trusted..n we two felt seriously hurt..tis bitch hv been toking stuff behind us..n expect mie to act as if nt had happened..F*CKIN' B*TCH..I CAN'T DO SUCH GOOD ACTING SKILLS MAN..F*CK OFF..GET OUT OF MOI LIFE..u like to tok bad abt pple..hw abt urself..n u didn't thk of our feelings..all our trust is in u..n our hearts is so willing to be ur frenx..but u jux instantly stab us..u even hurt uncle...pls go thk abt wat hv u done..
♥ 6:16:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, March 18, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i couldn't take anymore man..
these are wat i wanna tell tat particular F*CKIN' B*TCH who is always ard him..
pls go n take a look in the mirror tat u are nt his type..n NB..his mine lah..
wan find guys..go find other guys...DUN COME TOUCH OTHER PPLE'S BF..
ur looks is CMI lor..tok in tat kind of F*CKIN' ACTIN' CUTE manner..c liao..feel like pukin' man..
YOU BETTER STOP BEING BY HIS SIDE..BEFORE I DUN LEAVE ANY FACE FOR YOU..COZ I AM NOT AS INNOCENT AS YOU THINK..I CAN BE SUPERLY MEAN TO YOU..F*CKIN' B*TCH!!!
♥ 7:52:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, March 15, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hvnt been blogging for a very long time..nw dun reall noe wat to blog le..simple life..work..eat..slp..wat more..yar..perhaps make a mark..laogong bought mie a DVD player to be placed in moi rm..sm more is a portable one wor..haha...so sweet of him..jux becoz i sae i wan to watch Devil Beside You with himin the rm..n he bought tat..nw..i am worry tat he hv no money to use..nxt weekend i am meeting moi sec 5A frenx..haha...shiok sia..miz them lots..tis few daes i will be rather busy with moi work n preparation for the chalet..so pls 4giv mie..if i neglected anyone..as rene..u special lah..anythg jux giv mie a call at moi hp..in-coming call free mah..haha..dun waste tat service..another sad thg..laogong is worried abt his dad..his skin problem hv became more n more worst..even more jialat than last time..haix..n worst come to worst..laogong hv became rather stress out..haix..another thg i am unhappie abt..is tat laogong n xin yi..hv been rather close recently..i really told him moi feelings..but he didnt comment anythg...jux apologise..n he claims tat he jux treat her as a godsis..told him the way tat rene told mie to treat guys..i didnt try..but i told him..he didnt like the manner..he sae tat if i am unhappie abt anythg st away tell him..he will try nt to do it..i didnt wan to try..is becox i nioe tat will make us quarrel even more..so i dun wan to be quarreling..so rene..leting him do watever he wan..is telling him tat u trust him..but he might oso thg in another manner tat u dun care or concern abt him..i dun like fishing method..the fishing line might snap.. .. ..
♥ 5:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, March 10, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
no idea wat is wrong with laogong todae..he is so tense up..ask him..he jux told mie it was sm thgs regarding his dad..haix..jux wonder do he still treat mie as his gf ant..told mie to go hm..cox he wan to be alone..but he didnt thk tat i will be worried..no idea wat is really wrong with him..hope to noe frm him soon..laogong..i will always be there to support u..i will be ur listening ears..it is jux a matter..do u treat mie as one..luv u..tis few daes kinda busy at work..coz gt lots of events everywhere..nid us whole dae round..sianx..
♥ 10:45:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, March 06, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
sickening...quarrel again...n guess wat..both hv fault..but no one wans to giv in..hate it..do everythg hv to be in tis manner..wan to tok thgs out with him but he didn't giv mie the chance too..everythg jux burn..n he sae tat he is tired of working..izzit tat i'm stressing him too much..but i didn't push him tat much..shd i let go..he is tired..but receiving tis kind of treatment..i'm more tired..wan to giv him all the best but he always hv his negative comments..nt very negative..but to mie..i felt unhappie..he do appreciate..but jux dun wan mie to spend the money on him..jux wan him to be happie..i jux wan to c a smile in his face..izzit so difficult..his being st. forward..but to mie..is hurting..wat am i to do..i'm low batt le..gonna flat soon..
♥ 11:29:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, February 23, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie..i'm working everydae until very late nite..can't even effort the time to celebrate moi 2yr 7 mth..but i'm celebrating it on sat..haha..better than nv celebrate..haha..going for our mthly "X" meal..then going to CK Tangs to shop..actually nth much happened in moi life..moi life is so simple..jux slp,work,play n slp..jux so simple lor..no worries...nth special oso..n i'm oso waiting for moi pay to come..then i can hv smthg special..SHOPPING..haha..but b4 shopping i nid to clear moi bills..haha...time to go..bye~!!!
♥ 8:18:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, February 21, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie..todae blog a little for u..i'm nt dead..but jux busy..last two daes went to malaysia..quite fun..but nv really get to shop..so sianx..maybe planning another trip again..haha..hw abt u?hw's life?todae went to CK TANGS to be promoter...for 5 daes only lah..kind of tired with tis kind of busy life..wan to hv a brk..n i'm sick after the trip..due to can't slp properly..so tml i'm off..hee...nid to isolate moi-self at hm..when get pay meet u up bah..gdnites..
♥ 12:10:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, February 15, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie...so many daes didn't hv the chance to really blog properly...last few daes hv been hm late..after work jiu go meet laogong...on 13.o2 we had a small celebration..tis yr very budget so didn't exchange gift...jux go makan...but i bought him a black i-dog...n he is so happie...while 14.o2 he nids to work so i went over to his workplace to wait for him..help him do closing...n ya..i bake him a cake..he is so happie...hmm...as for todae...went to work...so tired...dun feel like working but can't..coz i nid money for many uses...haix...hmm...went to look for him...but didn't wait for him...coz he is going hm tonite...tml moi future father-in-law going for operation...tml after work going down to visit him bah...tat shd be moi plan for tml...
i hv realised the importance of him being in moi life..i luv him very deeply..so deeply tat i felt tat we are very fitted together...without him around i always feel awkward...hope we could forever be as loving as we are nw...laogong i luv u...*muackx muackx*
♥ 11:15:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, February 14, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hehe...1st time so bad of mie using company's computer to blog..nw gt nth to do...slacking...n todae is Valentine's Day wor...but laogong nid to work...sianx 1/2...but ytd we went for dinner at cafe cartel...so sweet of him...
♥ 1:14:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, February 10, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie...todae went to sch to get moi results...n guess wat..i gt to go to poly..but then results nt very gd..so gonna buck up...hmm...laogong is very happie..moi mama too...haha...gonna show then i can make it man..hahaha...went to get sm stuff to make sm ai xin thgy for laogong...hmm...n todae smthg pissed mie of...n tat is AARON...f*ck man...promise smthg...n nw brk it...wat the hell...no wonder no gers wan him...curse him forever no gf sia...irritating asshole...stupid old virgin...
♥ 6:42:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, February 04, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
okie...todae finally get to blog..haha..todae n tml i wun be able to meet laogong..so sad..but really no choice..so i hv to understand..really miz him lotx sia..hope faster mondae..then can meet him..haha..watch le fearless..going to watch i nt stupid two on mon with diza,yin min n laogong..hehe..i'm falling sick soon..sickening rite..haix..oso gd..laogong will shower all his attention n luv n care on mie..haha..opps!said smthg tat he dun like..later wan knock moi head again..haha..luv him so much sia..moi naive dream..is to engage to him at the age of 21..haha..get our own hse..then married at age of 25..haha..i'm thking so far..really wan to settle down with him..i dun wan to be apart..so..who wan to be moi bridemaid..haha..tml cook spaghetti for laogong's brk time..hope he like n be surprised..haha..luv luv luv..luv him so much..*muackx muackx muackx muackx*
♥ 11:21:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, January 29, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
finally todae is CNY..1st dae..usually 1st dae is a mux to go visiting with moi parents..but i didn't..i am going visiting with moi laogong to visit moi future grandparents-in-law..he is so happie to hear tat i'm going visiting with him..i'm happie too..but it is very early..i hv to meet him 930am at Clementi MRT..oh god!i'm nw slacking waiting for time to come to prepare..todae is a new year..new start..dragon fan tai sui wor..sad..hmm..go pray pray with moi precious baobei..n the pass one week moi life is busy..surrounded by work,shopping n moi precious baobei..everydae is with him..coz of our time doesn't cling..once we hv free time..we will be going out..bought him new yr clothes..hmm..try out lots of food ard..hope todae nth goes wrong bah..hee...Wish everyone a HAPPIE LUNAR NEW YEAR..Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!
♥ 7:12:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, January 22, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ok..i'm in a kinda gd mood nw..dunno why..mux i missing someone badly..tat is laogong..he hv been accompanying mie for one whole week so todae he nid to go hm..but i felt so lonely without him..but i'm very happie..dunno y..tml i'm going shopping with moi elder sis to get some clothes for CNY..last fri when chinatown with darling..walk ard..saw a stall which help draw henna n blackdye..i had a henna..while darling had a blackdye..perhaps getting a blackdye one on moi leg..haha..missing moi dear lotx..jux felt tat he is moi everythg..n moi cute little dear will always do thgs to make mie smile..he took photos of moi hip-hop piglet n pooh..haha...so cute lor..last few daes we hv lots of fun together..but..some we make to solve it without quarreling..while one we had a hot arguement..but everythg is cool down..jux luv dear a lot..he tried to really understand moi mood..always hving tots to get mie somethgs to make mie happie..so sweet of him..i felt happie for watever he buy for mie..coz it is yi fen xing yi..he uses his heart to get mie thgs..luv u lots darling..*muakcx muackx*
♥ 11:54:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, January 18, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm..last few daes work n work...after work then go find laogong...help him do some closing...happie tat i could help him sia..todae i am replacing rene...sitting in tis place...feel abit weird...coz it is special in the way tat rene is nt ard..thking of sundae...i'm abit sianx...i am broke...scared on tat dae no money...jux gt minestrone for dinner...hehe...later buying coffee bean de tirumisu for laogong...after his 3 daes of hard work...love him so much sia...jux hope tat we will be like tat all the time...wun quarrel...wun tok abt brk up...haha...end her lah...nth to write...
♥ 6:58:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, January 15, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i'm being a sicko..have been trying lots of ways to let him noe all moi heart..but everytime will coz him to be mad..perhaps bcoz i'm irritating..but can't he jux think tat i jux wanna make our relationship better..y do he hv to make everythg seems to be moi fault...if he is being like tat...do i really still able to spill moi heart to him again...or shd i sae...will i dare to spill moi heart to him again...he make mie felt tat watever i do...oso no use...i'm gonna be very pissed...n i am sick in moi mind...nw i jux wish tat i could work 24/7...make mie work until i couldn't take it...n fall very sick...i nid a break...i nid smone to be worried,care n concern over mie...i nid attention...i wan to fall sick...do hv all tis attention...i really sick in moi mind..but i really dunno wat i'm thking...i'm gonna break down soon...he make mie feel tat he is nt spending enough time with mie...bestie starting sch soon...frenx ard are busy with every other thg ard them...oh god...pls safe mie...i'm gonna become bonkus soon...argh~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥ 6:58:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
i'm being a sicko..have been trying lots of ways to let him noe all moi heart..but everytime will coz him to be mad..perhaps bcoz i'm irritating..but can't he jux think tat i jux wanna make our relationship better..y do he hv to make everythg seems to be moi fault...if he is being like tat...do i really still able to spill moi heart to him again...or shd i sae...will i dare to spill moi heart to him again...he make mie felt tat watever i do...oso no use...i'm gonna be very pissed...n i am sick in moi mind...nw i jux wish tat i could work 24/7...make mie work until i couldn't take it...n fall very sick...i nid a break...i nid smone to be worried,care n concern over mie...i nid attention...i wan to fall sick...do hv all tis attention...i really sick in moi mind..but i really dunno wat i'm thking...i'm gonna break down soon...he make mie feel tat he is nt spending enough time with mie...bestie starting sch soon...frenx ard are busy with every other thg ard them...oh god...pls safe mie...i'm gonna become bonkus soon...argh~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥ 6:58:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, January 11, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
oh god~~i felt tat i'm living in misery man...everydae hv to tolerate f*cking attitude of moi family members...still nid to receive faces frm them...pls help mie lah...is too much..even younger bros oso doing it to mie...mum is being unfair..n i mean very unfair..wans mie to do thgs tat no one in the family will be willing to do..consider as a shit thg..i heck care..she threaten mie to complete it..she is like trying to push mie to extreme..keep purposely intro jobs to mie..wan mie to work..tell her no point finding job nw too..coz results coming out very soon..mid feb..she argue n sae she heard it is coming out end of feb..haix..whole world is telling mie mid feb only her is end of feb..ask mie go work marina sq. long john..ask mie go holland V de swensen's..call mie go interchange there interview to sell bubble tea..oh god..1st marina sq there de long john is so difficult for mie to travel there..holland V. is so far frm moi hse..working at interchange is so bored n sia suey..wan mie to find a job..yes..i will after moi results is out..if i can't get into anywhere..i go work..n pay her rental for moi rm..n she will regret..cox i will jux heck care every event of the family..wan to push mie..push somemore lor..perhaps one dae i will jux move out..perhaps tat will make her happier..coz she hv one lesser to own..told her i'm waiting for ans frm jobs..she jux wun listen..tell her i perhap promoter job then f&b...she oso wun listen..sae she dun understand mie..she angry..f*ck lah..wat is tis..dun tok to her sae i giv her attitude..tok to her totally dun bother..go out sae i treat tis hse like hotel..dun go ot stay at hm..keep nagging n nagging...whole family at hm..only call mie one person to do tis n tat...others watching TV..nb lah..i'm treated jux like a maid lor..
♥ 1:58:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, January 08, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
now is 10:55am...didn't slp for the whole nite...thking of wat is wrong...wat hv i done tat made him treat mie in tis manner...he find mie irritating...find tat i dun look up on him then wat for i be with him...he wan mie to change...hw abt when i told him wat i dun like abt him...u said luv between two person shdn't hv sorry...but it is all abt giv n take...smhw...is it true...u said no appetite or no mood oso mux eat...hw abt urself...perhaps tis is retribution ba...coz frm the start of the relationship...i show a heck care attitude towards our relationship...n nw tat i hv fall so deeply...i hv to suffer all tis...even if i couldn't take it...i wun wan to end tis relationship...i would rather end moi own life...u felt tat i dun trust u...if i really dun...i wun wan to be with smone tat i nv trust...smtimes u only c thgs on the surfaces...did u really go n understand it...b4 making conclusion...i really dunno wat to do...if u felt tat it is moi fault to irritate u,to pissed u off n to hurt u which is all surfaces problem...then i apologise to u...sorry...i noe i am no more the first in ur life...but u are to mie...losing u will meant to be the end of moi life...u told mie to ask...dun assume or go by wat u urself is thking...but u are the one who is assuming thgs...or go by ur own feeling or thking...hv u ever really asked wat i really mean...tat's all ba...going off to help moi dad work...
♥ 10:57:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, January 07, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
once again...i hv made him pissed off...n is very pissed off...i am always nt sensitive towards his feelings...i'm nt a gd gf...i wan to bring him happiness...but once quarrel starts...nth can stop us...due to our quick-tempered character...i'm nw trying to control moi temper...perhaps moi mum is rite...no matter towards moi family,friends,bf or in the society...i hv to learn to control moi bad temper...sorrie dear...i'm really nt a gd gf...but moi feelings for u is real...n the feeling will nt change...but dear...really...if u nt happie abt anythg of mie...let mie noe...i will change it...coz i'm nt sensitive...so pls remind mie...i luv u always...
♥ 9:54:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, January 05, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
felt very lost again...dunno wat hv happen to moi mum...she all the sudden became very against mie n jason...no idea wat happened...or hv anyone hypocrite or sm one hv told her thgs...she even said unpleasant thgs...tat i totally hv no idea y...n wat she meant...hv i done smthg wrong?!?!the thgs she said made mie very upset...above tis...there's still another problem...tat's jason...i am changing...but smtimes he hv done action unknowingly tat hv hurt mie deeply...really dunno wat to do...i felt very upset...but i can't face to anyone...i am changing...but there's always certain small thgs tat coz us to quarrel...n when u're pissed off...u will sae u wanna brk...u said u can't take it anymore...i'm hurt...very hurt...yes...i noe there's once tat i nv appreciate u...but now i do...i tried to make u happie...try nt to pick up quarrels...but perhaps tis thgs are nt noticed...or u knew but it is taken for granted...i am very hurt...so hurt tat i felt like dying whenever u sae u wanna brk...i am nt dragging tis relationship...i am trying to change...to make tis relationship better...but u're impatient...n quick-tempered...every little thg could coz us to quarrel...u said dun assume...mux ask...dun hide anythg...mux sae...i tried...but u're the one...perhaps u hv forgotten to tell mie or double confirm with mie...but u shd noe moi stand...i really dunno wat to do...
♥ 1:52:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, January 03, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
omg~!!!OMG~!!!
i hv been slacking at hm for soooo many daes...
can't find a job...
can't find any khakis to go out...
laogong nids to work...he isn't free...
bestie is broke...can't go out...
families are busy...
who can accompany mie arrrr~!!!
tot of go accompany yin min...
but alone go out veri sianx sia...
nw i wan to save money...
opening a BBQ for no reason...
jux wan to gather all moi frenx...haha...
thking tat nw is 2oo6...make mie start to be afraid...
O results coming out soon sia...
haix...
aiya...afterall...moi results sure is expected to be very jialat de...
jux c whether i wan to accept the facts ant...
Moi want-to-get list for tis yr is...
a new HP
a pet
a laptop(perhaps bah...)
lots of new clothes
perhaps tat is all for the moment...
oya...!!!
every yr de bdae celebration is mie,myself plan de...
hw i hope tis yr there will be smthg special...*hint*
n hope tat i dun hv to plan it myself...but i thk it is impossible...
in tis new yr...
i wan to wish all moi frenx to hv a smooth journey...
pple who are attached...will last long long...
pple who aren't attached...will find their Mr. Rite/Ms Rite asap...
everyone to be healthy...
everyone to be successful...
as for laogong...
hope tat he is always happie...
hope tat he is healthy...
hope tat no one n nothing at work will bring him trouble or unhappiness...
hope tat he will luv mie always...hehe...
as for bestie,rene...
hope tat she dun fall sick easily anymore...
hope tat u n derrick will last long long...
hope tat ur life will be smooth sailing...
hope tat u will be doing gd at ur studies...
hope tat no sickening pple will bring u misery...
i thk tat is all bah...as for myself...
as long as everyone is happie...i'm happie...haha...
ALL THE BEST~~~!!!
♥ 11:20:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, January 02, 2006
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
countdown with laogong n moi two bros at CC there on 31 dec 2oo5...get to hv a close up look of fireworks...for 3 mins...but very nice wor...haha...but b4 tat quarreled with him...hope a new yr gt new start sia...as for ytd...laogong PH off...so mie n laogong slack whole dae at hm...no one scold coz moi parents isn't at hm...but tis few daes family members gt lots of attitude problem sia...sickening men...haiz...as for tis mth...gt to wait for laogong to get his pay...then he nid to get sm new yr clothes...haha...waiting for new yr to come too...coz gt red pkt to take n get to meet moi relatives...haha...then get laogong sm stuff with moi red pkt money...coz is time for him to hv a brk too...hmm...n going for sm gd food on 24 jan...tis sat going to laogong's ah ma hse...coz very long nv go visit due to his work...so spare one of the off dae go...tis mth is juz hope tat everythg will be smooth lah...hmm...as for nxt mth...18 feb i'm going malaysia with laogong...only coming back on 19 feb...nt a long trip...but can spare time together...haha...planning hw to celebrate 14 feb oso...perhaps tat's all bah...i will soon update again...
♥ 4:31:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, December 30, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ytd is moi two dear bros bdae...went to make their NRIC n change photo for their passport...after a long wait at there...went to bugis there de temple pray...then go to Marina Square de Giant to get some household stuff...walk ard Giant...then cash...realised the price of certain of their products are more expensive when cashed...so want to void those product...there is tis stupid supervisor...who dunno service sector rules...her name is Judy...i guess most of the time she stand at the customer service counter there...sickening to meet tis kind of pple...laogong almost wan to complain her sia...but da ren bu qi xiao ren guo...haha...went hm then start to season all the food for steamboat...coz is moi bros bdae...then the steamboat thgy spoil...sickening sia...but at the end we still get to eat lah...haha...after eating...moi bro cut cake...moi cute mum bought a log cake as their bdae cake...after cutting cake...moi bro go bathe...then we played mahjong with them...play until 2+am...then i can't stand nymore...start to blur blur when playing...so went to orh orh...haha...happie dae...Happie Birthdae...Didi Korkor!!!
as for todae...is different lor...having a veri foul mood...early morning being gav attitude by him...n i dunno y...perhaps he hvnt enough slp...but msg him oso dun wan reply...make mie damn pissed off...nw i am nt the one who is unreasonable...but u are giving mie tis kind of attitude...wat u wan mie to do?waiting for mie to brk u off...or wanting to make mie numb over tis relationship...or did u really gav mie chance to change...if u do giv mie chance...u shdnt hv those kind of attitude tat i am still the past mie...if tis is wat u call wan to continue tis relationship...pls go thk twice...if u didnt realised...tis few times...i hv nt been throwing temper...but u r the one doing it...i dun understand y...certain thgs tell u is wei le ni hao...but u nv ever get it into ur mind...if u still dun wan change ur short-temper n the way tat u thk of mie...wan to last tis relationship is damn hard...go thk abt it...
♥ 8:50:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, December 27, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
sometimes i juz really hate moi mum...she all the time like to use words to hurt mie...n those words she thks tat she could encourage mie...but she is wrong...her words jux hurt mie like nth...she make mie felt like leaving tis hm...go to the outside world n survive on moi own...juz totally hate the way she thk...if she really wan to encourage mie...sae it straight at moi face...rather then hurting mie...n thking tat i will go for it...i'm so sorrie...i go for soft...nt by daring mie...i jux felt tat moi bestie noes mie even better than she do...she hv five kids...all of us hv different thking...n yes..i agree...it is hard to handle all five of us...but she shd noe wat is rite to sae...really dunno wat she is thking...
♥ 8:46:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, December 26, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm..ytd stayed at hm almost whole dae until abt 8+pm then i left hm to meet laogong at his work place...he finish work at 9pm...but closing drag until gonna 10pm bcoz of aaron...then walk all the way to PS to meet xin yi n jun xian...we went to watch narnia...1030pm de show...the show is quite humorous..overall the show is okie lah...then went to get some food at Plaza by the Park de 1st floor...after eating all of us went off heading for hm...by then it is abt 2+ gonna 3 liao...reached hm...change liao...then orh-orh le...
during the whole outing...realised tat xin yi n jun xian is kinda weird...they are nt together...but they hv been hugging each other thru out the movie...n holding hands when walking ard...xin yi said she noes wat she is doing...but it is so weird lor...i even realised smtimes wan to hold hands or hug de is xin yi...nt jun xian...do she really noe wat she is doing...she dun seems like...n by doing all tis actions will jux make her fall for him more deeply...n jun xian is giving her false hopes...haix...smhw luv is really making pple going "blind"~!!!
as for todae...i woke up n followed moi parents to moi bros' god mother de mother de funeral...stayed there for almost whole dae...oso saw many shuai ge...didnt expect go funeral oso can c shuai ge...but who cares...i'm attached to moi laogong...oso saw a twins sister tat is moi age...they dun look like twins...n they dun look like 17 too...they look kinda old...oso know more abt funeral de xi su...hmm...oso went to mandai de crementorium...it is new n stylish but it is a place filled with lots of sadness...
♥ 5:40:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, December 24, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
To you.. .. ..
2dae is christmas eve..n we ended up quarreling..it's becoz i am unreasonable..but all i wan is jux to go out with u all..so tat i wun be alone at hm whole dae..n oso i could be with u..wan to be with u tat is y i ask u to take off 2dae n leave tml..but ur company cant allow u to do so..n since u guys ar going out tml..so i tot of following..at the end we ended up quarreling...n u wan mie to go thk over it until 10pm..u afraid i will be sianx..watch movie..hw could it be tat i will be sianx..ytd go meet u..n when u play pool..u thk tat i am sianx but no lor..is jux becoz i didnt slp well..n u shd noe i am sm1 who nids to warm up when i am with a grp of pple..i am nt tat flexible..n i am nt tat close to them tat moi mood could immediately go together with them..i juz wan u to understand lor..yes it maybe becoz i am too unreasonable..but i dun like the feeling whenever i wan to be with u..n u hv outing over ur side..i wish to join..i wish tat i could mix well with ur grp of frenx..so tat nxt time there could be outing tat both of us hv..n we could oso call them join..then it wun be bored tat only both of us..n it is naturally tat i will show a face when u joke with them until u almost neglected mie..if u..perhaps u might oso hv the same thking or feeling..pls understand lor..haix..i really dunno wat more to sae..but if u dun wish mie to join u at the outing then nvm..i will follow moi parent to the funeral..sorrie to bring unhappieness to u again..
♥ 8:01:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, December 22, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ytd laogong took leave...we went to j8 to shop shop...saw stephy...n went to find yin min n koon beng...so happie to c them sia...miz them very much...get to noe cai jie's N lvl results...he fail eng...so is st to ite...hope he will study hard lah...ytd shop ard j8...felt so different...although we dun hv money...jux window shop...thking wat to get if we hv money...n he gt a christmas gift for xin yi...coz she bought him smthg...hmm...then came back hm early coz laogong wan go play bball...at 6+pm went down to look for him...suddenly downpour...laogong reached hm...but i am stuck under blk...so sweet of him...he jux came all the way to fetch mie hm...his very worried...coz i'm caught under the rain...hmm...laogong...fang xin...i wun fall sick tat easily...hehe...todae is a dae to slack at hm...tml meeting rene,zhen,loy n maine go ps...to eat n exchange gifts...haha...
♥ 12:25:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, December 20, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ytd went to ikea with rene to get smthgs as christmas gifts for our frenx...then went to carrefour at PS to get sm candies...after hving our dinner at Yoshinoya...walk to rene's office to pack those thgs...at 7+pm set of to meet laogong at TSS...reached there...n he told mie tat he c wrongly his off work time...it is 9pm...nt 8pm...wait for him for another 1 hr...it is okie lah...nt brk moi record yet...hmm...took bus hm with him...chatted abt tis n tat on the bus...n out of a sudden...he asked mie abt sm future hse thgy...cute...we two looks like juz wed couple...haha...thk too much le...reach hm eat dinner...watch vcd...at abt 12+mn...laogong tot of going to mac...so we went mac...reached hm at abt 1+am...slack awhile then went to slp le...as for todae...woke up at abt 10+pm...buy breakfast for him to eat...after eating watch vcd...after watching...went to slp for awhile...then he went off to work...as for mie...slp until 5+pm...tok to rene on the phone for awhile...then cook spaghetti for dinner...after eating...i start to use the com...until nw...smthg changed moi mood jux nw...n tat's moi mum...she said smthg tat really hurt mie...she said tat i v to slim down...if nt when mie n him walk outside looks very weird...she even said...dun even noe whether he mind ant...i'm her daughter leh...n she can juz sae all tis hurtful stuffs to mie...i noe he wun mind...but moi mum hv coz moi tots to run wild again...haix...i am so confused nw...pls help mie...
♥ 9:22:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, December 18, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
mood change...deleted the whole blog i blog jux nw...nth much happened todae...went to pray tai sui ye...then go toa payoh eat with moi family...then go bishan with moi da jie to change clothes de size...then went down to PS meet rene...then shop ard PS,somerset n orchard then went down to TSS to meet him...his nt hving a gd mood...coz sm thgs happened...after he finished working...went down to PS de arcade...coz he wan to go there to fa xie...after he fa xie...then came back hm...n then nw blogging lor...tat's wat hv happened todae...nth much bah...everyone take care...=)
btw,i wun be blogging for a few daes...or perhaps stop blogging...sorrie...
♥ 11:15:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, December 17, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...nw using moi mum rm inside de com...feel like blogging so blog again lor...juz chat with rene...n hv decided the presents to get for the gang o...suddenly miz him very badly...thking of wat colour to paint moi rm...waiting for tml nite so tat we could decide together...hehe...i like to do all tis stupid thgs...find places to hang the jigsaw puzzle too...suddenly like a lot of thgs to tell him sia...but he nw working...nt very gd to disturb him...sm more tis morning...find tat he weird weird de...wat happened neh?!?!?i really dunno...i juz dun hv a gd feeling...wat is wrong sia...haiz...ask him he will sae nth...but i could sense a bad feeling ar...i wan to organize smthg well...but everyone like can't make it wor...
♥ 3:34:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...ytd meet up with rene to look for yin min...n todae steph gt work...so went to meet her...realised tat i luv to be with her grp of frenx...coz they are open,st. forward n daring...n oso realised tat grp suit mie more...compared to moi other frenx ba...coz i rather tired with those kind of acting life...i'm like changing...hope nt too much changes...n ytd was chatting with rene n yin min...while chatting...realised tat moi nxt week is fully booked...mondae go out with moi baobeis...tuesdae nid to pack moi rm...wednesdae laogong off...maybe go window shopping bah...or paint moi rm de walls...haha...then thursdae is the dae to pray tai sui ye ar...so moi mum sae cant let moi frenx come on tat dae...wan come...come on 23rd nite...mie n moi gang will be celebrating a early christmas lor...coz christmas eve nite laogong nt working...so i booked him...he booked mie...coz although tis is the third christmas once we were together...but for so many yrs...we didn't really had the chance to really celebrate...coz last two yrs...laogong in army...tis yr finally can celebrate together...haha...sorrie to moi gang...pls understand o...hehe...hmm...laogong...i am getting smthg tat u always wanted...hope u would like...n dun scold mie for spending money o...coz last two yrs oso nv giv u anythg...tis yr special lah...hehe...
♥ 10:28:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, December 16, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
Wonderful outing wif moi tat bunch of hao jiu bu jian de close frenx...everyone is busy wif our lifes so waited for so many yrs den we are able to gather together...other den the part tat ah john is late...everythg was smooth lor...after the outing...reach hm kinda late...reach hm ard 12mn...sit down wif him to tok thgs out...he hv set a period of two mths...which is until the end of feb...to c is our patch a gd decision or wat...a lot of tots run thru moi mind...he wan patch izzit due to responisiblity?frm the start of our patch he izzit already plan to hv the period of time...i always felt tat i hv been troubling him a lot...nw really wan to get a job work liao then return him the money...i noe he dun mind...but i dun feel gd in mie...i am oso wondering tat he izzit always hving the thking tat i wan to patch with him is bcoz i wan to find chance to brk him...sometimes really wonder...patching with him is a rite decision or am i creating trouble to his life...nw he is stress out due to his dad's stall again...TSS is oso became a unstable job to him...worried tat thgs might come up between us again due to all his stress...tried letting go him by giving him more freedom ba...n celebrating christmas ant...is no more impt le...rene asked mie...do i still hv a strong feeling for him...or am i trying to 4get him b4 our 2 mths de period is up...moi ans is...perhaps bcoz he once hurt mie so deeply...tat hv made mie lose the courage to step into tis relationship again...i nid time ba...hw long...i wun noe...but 2 mths is insufficient...cox i dun change moi fear easily...watever it is...if everythg wanna be in tis manner...i oso hv no choice...i could only play moi own part properly...
♥ 11:13:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, December 13, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...todae whole dae at hm...so slack sia...woke up early in the morning...coz laogong wan help mie dye hair...dye le then highlight...but ar...the most kanasai thg is hor...highlight half way realised nt enough highlight de...sian 1/2 sia...nvm...i nxt mth then highlight again...dunno hw i wan to highlight...so alow laogong to play with moi hair lor...dunno nice ant...cox cant c the back...but nvm...trust him...but then will call rene to judge for mie when everythg is done...then after all the dying n highlighting...mie n laogong lying on the bed...hugging each other to slp until near his work time...then he woke up to prepare to go work...miz him sia...hw i hope we could jux be together whole dae round...but he nids to work...sianx 1/2...knew frm rene tat tis thurs meeting up with moi those sisters...kinda happie...but oso abit sianx...too long nv meet them le...dunno meet up le...will weird weird ant...watever it is...it is a gd chance to gather all of us together too...but i am veri budget lor...haix...sad...rene nw at derrick's sec sch class de gathering...dunno she will be sianx ant...dun wan call her...let her go mix ard with them better...if nt later the others sae tis n tat...hmm...i thk i end here le lah...
♥ 10:38:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, December 12, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...veri long no blog le...coz busy working...finally todae gt time coz ytd was the last dae of work...currently looking for another job...miz moi baby n moi baobeis...really will remember all the fun n laughter tat we hv...n i promise i will meet up with u guys soon...oso met up with moi long lost friends...stephenie...she become more n more chio....hw i hope i could be like her...to hv the courage to doll up...scare later doll up le...pple will sae u look so ugly n stuff...haiz...watever it is...stay original...bought hair dye...n ask him to dye moi hair for mie...hope the colour will suit mie...bought a few skirt...nice sia...but i muz noe hw to pei the clothes lah...hmm...currently looking for another job...anyone gt lobang pls help mie o...
♥ 5:13:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, November 27, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...ytd rene let mie listen to a song--"Stickwitu" by The Pussycat Dolls...it is really nice...but cant find it...haix...on the other hand...i'm oso trying to look for cheap resort or chalet in singapore...so tat i can organise a gathering...within budget...but can enjoy...nxt week going to c dr le...haix...afraid it will be expensive...if it is...i might hv to change moi mind of organising gathering...watever it is...christmas i will celebrate with u guys de...but u all go plan the events lah...waiting news frm u guys yar...take care...
♥ 11:22:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, November 26, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
after patch with him...everythg is really different...but for moi side...i hv to giv n take...giv him watever freedom he wans...n take watever time his willing to spare mie...very sianx 1/2...coz nt wan to meet him then can meet him...nt wan go out then can go out...mux c his schedule...hope tis is the way tat i could be understanding towards the time he wans ba...coz afterall...i'm veri veri free nw...watever it is...i'm planning a gathering or a outing ba...hope can open a chalet for mie n him to enjoy life...n oso gather crazy seven...nt easy but i will try...those tat dun turn up means dun giv mie face...haha...actually is planning to overseas trip to Port Dickson with moi family...but everyones time is so packed...moi eldest sis studying...moi 2nd sis will be on her PA attachment soon...moi mum n dad got jobs on their hands...haix...plan a trip oso so difficult...coz moi heart is wanting to be with everyone...since i nw hv spare time...but nt everyone hv spare time too...hmm...so hv to choose between gathering with frenx or family...
♥ 9:01:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Wednesday, November 23, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
long time no blog le...took moi own sweet time to heal over all the pain n stress...but nw everythg is over...examx is over...mie n him hv patched up too...really happie...coz he really mean a lot to mie...n for nw i am really willing to change...nt totally...but certain thgs tat he doesnt like abt mie...i will take it out frm mie...he too...certain thgs i dun like abt him...he hv to throw it away...haha...but nt those leisure tat u hv lah...those i understand...is ur interest mah...but everythg mux shi ke er chi...mux noe ur limits...n then certain thgs u nid to giv mie time to heal too...ok...=) now moi worries is on rene...she's strong on the outside...but everythg inside her is in pieces...she nids lots of time to sort out everythg...hope she could be strong again...then we will be out for our window shopping...then pay dae...go for shopping...shop for stuffs tat we like...n buy lots of small tiny mouth watering food to eat...hehe...u hv to take care...yes...i noe u will sae u will take a long time to heal...but 1st u hv to stand strong...2nd face up with wat u hv nw...let the past be placed aside...until it cools off then tok abt it...lots of thgs is u tell mie de...so u shd noe wat to do...tis journey might be tough...but i could walk thru...so do u...nt tat i hv patched up with him then i said all tis thgs in a ya-ya manner...no...i noe hw u feel...i took 2 weeks to overcome myself tat he could be jux moi frenx...it might be i'm stronger than u...but u shdnt take too much time longer then mine...if u dun wan tis friendship anymore...then let urself forget abt him...but tis journey is tougher...coz it is a one big step king of journey...while treating him as a frenx tat process...take small steps...it is easier...no matter wat...i'm there for u...any time any moment...jux call mie or msg mie...k...take care...n enjoy urself at the chalet...
♥ 12:45:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, November 10, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
tml is the 2nd week after our brk up...i felt tat i seems to be counting the daes tat we hv broke up...n waiting for the dae...tat i really can 4get abt him totally...he is the one tat brought mie lots of happiness in life n went thru lots of ups n downs with mie...but nw he juz sae he wans to end everythg...it is nt easy to accept tis fact...but i hv too...he dun even bother to reply moi msgs...perhaps he dun wanna contact anymore...or maybe he really wans mie to wait...he decided to persuade his further studies...going shatec to study...yes...happy tat u hv really made up ur decisions...but i'm hurt over everythg...u dun bother abt mie totally...n juz go on with ur life...it is unfair to mie...but who will really understand moi feelings...i thk nt even u...coz if u really understand moi feelings...u wun treat mie in tis manner...brking up at such a critical period...hurting mie like nobodies business...perhaps u felt tat ur life nw is better...coz no one is controlling u or nagging at u anymore...if u feel tis way...then i could confirm tat in the past...u dun understand y i will oftenly nag at u...as wat u sae...everythg is too late...nxt yr entering to ITE...is a confirm to mie...everyone sae i shd stay focus...but staying focus is nt easy...it is a 27 mths relationship...n he juz end it...thking tat it is for his own gd...but nv ever tot of moi feelings...hurting mie is like nth to u...coz u r nt feeling the pain...but wan mie overcome u juz over 1 nite n stay focus on moi o lvls is nt easy...i am nt sm1 with no feelings...u said u wan to be frenx...BUT msging u...n u cant be bothered to reply...i dunno...i am sick or wat...i am pissed n sad...but who will really understand moi feelings...perhaps frm the start...i am wrong to step into ur life...n into tis relationship...making so upset...while u r still able to enjoy ur life...fate is treating moi feelings like toys...life is treating mie as a game...playing ard with everythg...messing everythg...then jux left everythg aside...tis kind of life juz sux...y do i hv to face such a fate...
♥ 11:16:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, November 06, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
it is one week after our brk...making mie veri miserable for one week...mondae is the start of moi life...de last impt exam...perhaps bah...but no mood to study...realised tat he kept everythg to himself...nv ever told anyone...nt even his frenx in TSS...only told them tat he wans to be single...but i felt tat there is lots of thgs behind everythg...is he taking mie as a sacrifice in his life due to all his stress??is it really tat all his feelings hv faded??do he thk tat he hv done the wrong decisions??is he too stress tat make him done the wrong decisions??hv he thk of moi feelings??do i exist in his world??i really hv lots of questions with mie...waiting for him to ans...when could he ever ans moi questions for mie...i really dunno...juz waiting for the dae 24 nov to come...so tat i could tok to him...really tok to him...
♥ 12:47:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, October 31, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
todae is the 3rd dae le...oso is moi chinese o lvl paper...o lvl paper ok lah...nt really as tough as i expected...but sure is ard E8 or D7 de lah...hmm...todae is 3rd dae...3rd dae of our brk up...realli upset but cant do anythg...miz him but cant c him...haix...but at least todae gt a little changes...msg him...he replied...nt a long msg...but i realli happie le...at least he willing to reply...waiting for the ans tml...haiz...dunno wat will the ans be...but i hope it will be a positive ans...coz i realli dun wan to lose him le...perhaps bcoz he replied moi msg le...so i dun realli hv a lot to complain...only wan him to be by moi side...i happie le...watever it is...tml will be a dae tat will realli affect moi life...take care...
♥ 2:04:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, October 30, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
2nd dae le...done lots of reflection thru out the nite...realised tat it is moi fault to be alwayx acting so unreasonable...realli regretted with moi actions...realli wan to prove him tat i hv realised moi mistakes...but he juz dun seems to be willing to giv mie another chance...he is extremely impt to mie...memorise of 27 mths is nt so easy to be 4gotten...he is avoiding moi calls...n ignoring moi msgs...hw could he be so hard hearted...decided to giv him until 1st nov...to thk thru whether do he wanna patch...so control moiself nt to contact him...i am hurt...very hurt inside...tml is o lvl chinese...but juz dun hv the mood to thk of it...all moi attention is on tis relationship...moi luv for him is no more juz puppy luv...realli luv him with all moi heart...but he juz dun wan to care abt mie...hw i wish i could juz end moi life...end moi sufferings...without him in moi life...must as well take away moi life...so tat i wun hv to suffer so much...he make mie fall realli deeply for him...n nw he juz ignore mie totally...juz nw call him...he asked mie y still kip calling him...saying tat i hv gav him until 1st nov...y still kip contacting him...i sae those thgs but u didnt reply mie...i realli dunno wat to do...no one can help mie...n no one knows hw hurt i am...u said even if i gav u until 1st nov n thk...u will nv change ur mind...but hv u ever thk of hw i feel...27 mths of relationship...took mie 2 yrs to 4get abt a 5 mths relationship...n fall realli deeply for u...n nw our 27 mths juz end like tat...nt even a single chance...nt tat i wan to bother u...but i realli cant let go...rene sae is time to let go...but it is nt so easy...using mouth to sae is easy but the actions is tough n hurtful...mum wans mie to concentrate on moi studies...without him ard...moi life is in a total mess...hw am i to concentrate...at least if he gives mie sm hope for tis relationship...i will still better...but no...juz within 1 dae...he sae brk then brk...nt tat we dun hv feelings for each other...it is juz becoz of mie...but nw i realli reflected...realli reflected...y he cant jux giv mie another chance...u dun wan to listen to mie...but will u listen to others...realli hope tat sm1 could juz help mie...i realli done a lot of thking...without him for 2 daes...moi life is realli lifeless...no mood to eat...no mood for any other activity...cant slp...took the whole nite everydae to reflect on our relationship...it is realli moi fault for nt being understanding...but being more unreasonable...i realli realised moi mistakes...realli...hw i hope he could c all these...but i thk it is less possible...nw tat i am controlling moiself nt to contact him will realli giv him the chance to thk over abt our relationship...he kip saying he doesnt wan to tok abt tis anymore...but i realli felt unfair...he didnt explain or giv mie the chance to prove him...realli hurt mie...pls dun treat mie in tis manner...u realli hurt mie...hope u could find sm1 to tok...n ask for opinions...n hope tat tat person is a angel who could help mie n bless tis relationship...realli dun wan tis relationship to be sour anymore...i wan it to be sweet...n i will realli treat him well...if he giv mie another chance...i realli wan him to be moi laogong 4ever...realli...realli waiting for gd news frm him on 1st nov...even if he sets conditions or tell mie...he will only patch with mie after moi o lvls...i also dun mind...as long as he giv mie sm hope to tis relationship...i juz dun wan it to end...realli...pls bless us...pls help us...take care...
♥ 8:24:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, October 29, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
everythg hv changed since ytd...feeling veri bad in mie...feeling veri upset...hw i hope the time jux could be turn back...or jux being given a 2nd chance...but no one will understand...i really dunno wat to do...all i noe i am veri regret...i hv lost smthg tat is most impt in moi life...hw i wish i could jux end moi life to end all moi sufferings...i really luv him...very dearly...but he jux dun understand it...i am willing to do any chances...as long as he gives mie another chance...i show a strong side of mie...but i am really veri upset in mie...to him...he felt tat contiuning tis relationship is jux trying to drag it...but in mie...i really nt wan to drag it...i wan to continue with tis relationship n be happie n treat him well...but all tis are nt listen into him...anyone can help mie...help persuade him...help mie let him noe i really luv him dearly...help mie soften his heart so tat i could once again enter...n treat him even better nw...really regretted with moi actions tat changed everythg...really wan to persuade him...but it isnt so easy...coz he felt tat i jux wan to drag tis relationship on...but no...i really wan to be with him again...n i really promise tat i will do any chances...hope he will soon realised wat i am thking...n give mie another chance which i will really appreciate it again...watever it is...hope he will take care n hv a blessful life...
i hv no mood for moi o lvls...
coz i hv lost amthg really impt to mie...
juz hope tat the time could be turned back...
or tat he will giv mie another chance...
juz another chance which i will really appreciate...
but i thk...really could change his decisions anymore...
*sad,depressed,lonely*
WHY NO ONE COULD HELP MIE???
SOMEONE PLS HELP MIE...PLS...
♥ 5:53:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, October 27, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
hmm...i was told to update moi blog everydae...coz u thk tat tis is the only source tat u can find out wat is happening ard moi life rite...haha...oie...phone fake one ar...haha...joking lah~...nth much happened lately...or maybe i shd sae almost nth...juz sm small quarrels with him...coz u noe lah...guyz juz cant cope with the life of managing the different character a ger can hv when facing different situation or after certain incidence...watever it is...jux hope tat soon everythg will be smooth...o lvls are really close...but dun really hv the heart to study yet...but trying moi best lah...ok...after 16.1o...which is the last dae i blog...nth much happened...slack at hm...meet up with u guys on 20.10...make mie wait almost 2hrs sia...poor mie...worst is the whole outing only lasted for 30mins...waste moi time...but ok lah...at least we can gather together...sundae slack at hm again...thk of lots of thgs...mondae which is 24.10...is aloy's bdae...n moi 2yr 3mth with him...hmm...veri fast each mth jux passed...when to pet shop...n decided after o lvls...i am going to get moi-self another hamster...n tis time round i am going to take gd care of it...n i mean it...so dun be surprise if u c mie bringing them ard...even when we are out to window shopping...hmm...also saw a new pet...nt in pet shop but one of the stalls i guess...it is called Ha Ha Crabs...it is actually hermit crabs...veri small once...they hide in shells..wat attracted mie is tat there shell are painted...veri cute n nice...but expensive wor...1 set $25...include the hse n everythg...2 for $45 wor...hmm...hamster still better...coz tat hermit crab can pitch pple sia...n hamster dun bite pple so often...hope o lvls will be over soon n i will start to enjoy life...haha...k lah...u mux take care lor...i will try to write everydae de...
>.<
♥ 12:43:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Sunday, October 16, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
nw hving a mixture of feelings again...missing all moi frenx in MJR...luv them lotx...all tis is part n parcel of life...thking back the daes tat i alwayx thking to get out of tis sch...but nw...finally graduate le...but missing the sch badly...thking of sm stuffs...read rene's blog...then thking back to wat patricia hv told mie...tat really struck mie...in moi yrs in MJR...i hv a grp of sisters...
-->Crazy Seven<-- i was discussing with her abt memories of them...then suddenly she said smthg...which made mie feel sad...hmm...she said tat if we are really tat united...we wun ended up with all in different places...we shd be all in same sch n same class until nw...thking back to the daes...of nt pulling moi sisters along with...thking back to the daes...tat we only enjoy playing ard...nv get them to hv the interest in studying...or else we will be graduating together on 14.1o.2oo5...haiz...izzit really moi fault...for being selfish...i really dunno wat to do...all the feelings are juz coming to mie all the sudden...i dunno wat to do...n hw to react to it...it will juz be so fun if we crazy seven get to graduate together...
♥ 11:17:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ;
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
went to read xinyi's blog...realised tat she is being pampered by a lot of pple in soup spoon n even him...okok...i might be stupid...but he is using the way tat he treat mie to treat him...by the way she describe it...it is so unfair to mie...last nite wan to tok to him over certain thgs...but he fall aslp...one of the reason y we always quarrel is bcoz of tis...everytime when we wan to discuss thgs over the phone...he will feel tired n fall aslp...smtimes even making mie thk tat he did listen...but he didnt...y izzit so unfair to mie...nt tat it is 3am or 4 am...smtimes even at 12mn or 1am...u can be tired...hw abt if u are out there with ur grp of frenz...going kbox until 3am...everytime quarrel...is moi fault for being unreasonable...but hv u ever thk of hw i feel...our time for going out together is almost zero...while ur time for them is full...anytime any moment...u will jux call to tell mie u wun be going hm so early or u will come to moi hse later at abt 3+am...no matter is go eat or going kbox with them...smtimes even the time tat is meant for mie also will hv thgs happened tat nid to involved them...nt tat i wan to quarrel...i dun find u to quarrel will u ever listen to wat i sae...u will jux take everythg for granted...thking tat i am juz nagging...n who is the one who sae tat saying sorrie is nt a pt in relationship...whenever u thks tat it is ur fault u will juz sae sorrie...n expect mie to forgiv u...all the time to u...i juz wan to occupy u...pls lor...u are spending time working n with ur grps of frenx...the time tat u spend with them flies...while the time u spend with mie...is veri slow...so to u...u thk tat u are spending a lot of time with mie then with them...going out with them u will be the one to plan everythg...going out with mie...i hv to be the one to plan...we cant juz go out sit down n tok...the purpose of both of us going out mux be tat we wan to go get sm stuffs...u will nv ever realised tat u are spending a lot of time with ur frenx...even if u are reading tis blog...u are jux scanning thru...nv really thoroughly read thru n understand wat i wan to sae...perhaps to u...i am juz like a irritating gf who is always nagging at u...but hv u ever come to understand hw i feel n wat i am trying to sae...to u...i nag at u is bcoz i dun wan u to go out with them BUT i wan u to accompany mie...<--tis is the kind of impression tat i am giving u...a lot of unhappie thgs u dun wan mie to do...i will jux listen...but u...do u ever bother to listen to wat i dun wan u to do...if one dae we do really brk up...it will be soup spoon's fault...certain thgs tat u enjoy...i cant go...u hv to understand y...our age gap is 4 yrs...i am nt like xin yi whose parents is giving her so much freedom...even if i am her...i will noe moi limits...nt going out almost everydae until damn damn late like nobody's business...ask u to accompany is juz like calling u to go n die...while they call u to go out with them...is juz like calling u to enjoy urself...f*ck...i am ur stead...nt a frenx who is like mei lan bothering u...i really dunno wat to do...to u...i will alwayx be the same...even if i change for the sake of tis relationship...to u...i will still be the same...coz u NEVER EVER bother to understand wat is wrong with mie....
♥ 9:56:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, October 15, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
tis is moi class de "quan jia fu"...seldom will c moi class so cooperative...hahaha...we took tis photo bcoz we are making gifts for our dear t-chers...c the bright smile on every faces...actually every bright smile also symbolises sadness...all of us hv spent at least 2 yrs together...really misses them alot...when other photos come then i write more ya...hehe...take care guys...
♥ 8:57:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, October 13, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
ok...todae in sch a veri fun thg happened...but poor thg tat particular guy who is being beaten up...he is quentin...a irritating ass of sec 5a...n he is really damn sickening...he even irritates teachers...watever it is...todae is his bdae...so 5a bois n 5b bois...hv presented him with a bdae bash...haha...bad...but he really deserve it...they are all taking the chance to take revenge...normally c pple being beaten up...i feel sad for them...while for him...special case...damn happie...fun...n shuang...tml is graduation nite...our class is gonna present him another bdae bash...coz we hv all tolerated his nonsense for 3 yrs...really suffering man...hmm...now while typing tis...i am also creating smthg specially to ms neo...our dear form tcher for 3 yrs...hahaha...dunno whether will she kana anythg frm moi class...todae tried to enjoy moiself with them...disturbing each other...enjoying ourselves as far as possible...ok...enough of sch stuffs...i thk u pple are more interested in moi relationship...gd news is...we hv nt brk up...everythg is veri smooth nw...bad news is...he still doesn't hv much time for mie...haix...ok...but he hv promised mie to spend all his free time with mie after moi o lvls...i also promised him to work hard for moi exams...haha...no pain no gain mah...hmm...but honestly speaking...he is really sm1 who moltivate mie,encourage mie,love mie n protects mie...thx to him...:)
♥ 10:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Monday, October 10, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
No matter watever i do,
No matter watever i sae,
I jux can't change his mind,
However,
His actions hv hurt mie very deeply.
I hv shed tears,
I hv tried to do anythg,
I hv done everythg i can,
Jux nth can change his mind.
At any moment... ...
I might or might not lose him!
I DUN WAN TO LOSE HIM!!!
I DUN WAN TO BRK UP... ...
I do admit... ...
For a period of time,
I hv taken him for granted...
BUT now...
He is really veri important to mie.
BUT everythg jux seems to be too late...
I dunno when i will lose him.
I only noe...
Without him...
I will choose to end moi life.
Tis might be a stuppid act...
BUT he is tat important to mie.
However... ...
He is stubborn...
Veri stubborn...
Jux hope he could understand...
How i feel...
N wat i thk...
I LOVE YOU,DEAR~!!!
♥ 4:27:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Saturday, October 08, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
somethg tat made mie veri sad happened ytd nite...he miss his first stead...i understand coz is the first...n nt bcoz of the incident she wun leave him...he sae he misses her veri badly...worst is tat he said that she treats him veri well which is nt able to be compared with his other steads...haiz...they are together for 6 mths...while mie n him together for 2yrs n 2 mths le...y u still able to sae such a thg...n it hurt mie veri deeply...didnt get to slp well the whole nite...having sm mixture of feelings...wondering abt a lot of tots...haix...i really dunno wat to do...all i wan to do n sae is...hui min(his 1st stead's name)...if u are alwayx ard with him...pls do guide him n protect him...n hope u could bless our relationship...thx...he might nt be the 1st bf tat i hv in life...but he is the 1st one...tat make mie willingly to cope with tis bgr no matter wat...i dun wan to lose him...he is jux like moi everythg...n i really mean it...without him...i really dunno how to go on with moi life...lastly...laogong i luv u...no matter wat...i will be there to share ur everythg...dun keep it to urself...take care...
♥ 3:22:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Friday, October 07, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
last few daes didnt blog...bcoz i simply hate tis com...it has a habit of auto re-start...let's nt tok abt the past few daes...juz tok abt todae...todae in sch learn a-maths frm pat...hmm...she teach...it sound so simple...but went i do...it burn moi brain cells...then after sch...call n msg him...afraid tat he might be late for work...but then ended up being scolded for scoring bad prelim results...haix...i also dun wan get such a bad results ar...at the same time rene msg mie...abt her n his problem...i juz felt a sudden brk down...thk tat i can't even solve moi problem but still help others...but after thking n cooling down...i realised i shd divide thgs clearly...haix...mie n his problem haven't settle...another problem came up...being scolded by moi mum for moi hp bills...haix...if tis is the case...i would rather at the start dun buy the phone...haix...todae everythg juz seems to be moi fault..n nxt fridae is graduation dae le...veri fast...moi 5 yrs in tis sch is gonna end soon...n the exam tat is going to predict moi future is coming too...have to work hard for it...nxt week graduation dae...after graduation dae...wan to organise outing with moi peeps...but i bet all sure dun wan de...bel will be occupied by dan...suzhen will keep herself occupied with boon teck...whereby other peeps...wans to go out with another grp of classmates...haix...but i still have him...hopefully nxt fridae he can come meet mie...then i wun be lonely n we can go out too...for a veri long period of time...we havent been enjoying ourselves le...always quarreling...haix...i gonna end here le...take care worx...
♥ 10:26:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Tuesday, October 04, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
since the dae i hv last blog...lots of thgs happened...rene's ah ma passed away...left rene...she is sad...but she hv also came to understand everythg is life...on sat n sun went to the wake...on sat went with zhen n john...on sun went with loy n maine...hmm...did nt expect tis is the manner i meet loy n maine...hmm...as for rene...putting up her brave self...frm her face still can tell tat she misses her ah ma badly...well after the two busy daes...on sun nite quarrel with him...broke up for 24 hrs...on mondae...we patched again...unknowingly...coz we really luv each other...n wat...becoz of the busy weekends...i became ill...went to sch on mon...but early depart...return hm...rest for the whole dae...tues morning still ill...cant go sch...haiz...tell him abt it...n conclusion is i am nt drking enough water...dehydrated peishan...haha...well ytd nite...chat with him on phone...ask him abt work...he was upset...as he felt tat soup spoon treatment is veri biased...but laogong...tat is life n being biased is human nature ar...juz thk in a positive manner lor...watever it is...i suppose to be resting now...but felt tat havnt blog for many daes...so shd blog...hehe...end here le bah...take care worx...
♥ 11:57:00 AM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
♥ ; Thursday, September 29, 2005
最美的不是下雨天,是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 ♥
tis few daes hv been a little busy...busy trying to regain all moi energy tat i hv spent for the last few weeks...hv been slping damn damn early...so didnt hv the time to blog...finally nw i have...coz cannot slp...continue slp ar...no gd also...gt back prelim results...n it is very jialat...haiz...dun care...do better for o lvls...hee...hmm...another thg is tat...tis few daes laogong hv been accompanying mie...so it is keeping moi stress lvl low...but i am afraid when is soup spoon's payday...everythg will become very horrible...haiz...wat ever it is...i hv told moi self tis few daes to control moi self nt to quarrel with him ...or giv him stress...coz giv him stress...moi stress is double...tat dae i am touched by wat he said...coz he seems to finally understand hw i feel...hope he really do...watever it is...i hv been controlling moi feelings...telling moi self...he felt tat he hv already spent a lot time for mie...n he wans to be with his frenx...really trying to hold back everythg...jux to moi self...haix...juz afraid tat he tis week accompany mie for so many daes...n nxt week he will juz tell mie he hv outings n he cant accompany mie...i dun wan him to one week spent a lot of time with mie...then nxt few weeks quarrel or he jux totally no time for mie...haix...
To HIM...
i am keeping moi feeling frm u...bcoz i dun wan u to be stress out..but as usual..ur laopo is still a sensitive person...no matter wat...as for xinyi...i dun dare to sae anythg...or do anythg...coz i juz felt tat no matter wat...u will side her...n we will ended up quarreling...n quarrel is jux doubling moi stress...dunno whether do u understand...but at least i hv already told u moi feelings...sorrie...i noe i am nt a gd gf...i wan to be one...but nothing can change mie...sorrie...haiz...watever it is...u noe i love u veri much...hwever...i am still the girl u noe since 20th July 2003...
♥ 6:31:00 PM,
Becoz' you always love mie more.
tis is the photo tat laogong use his N70 to take de..haha..nxt mth..i might be getting moi N70 le o..haha..hmm..yesterdae laogong off..went out..at bugis walk walk..went to take neoprint..then walk ard..then decide to go get laogong de N70..bought the extra memory card n the protective casing too..he's happie..but wallet one big big hole..kinda xin tong lah..after buying..went to ms clarity cafe to eat..laogong took photos of the food..but didn't transfer into the com..the neoprint oso can't scan in..wait lah..wait until one dae..if i can..i will do it..haha..
